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[sunflowerwithoutlight]

Engraçado que eu estou fazendo de tudo para tentar te esquecer, para me esquecer da dor que você me causou e da dor do término, para me curar de você e ver se supero pelo menos um pouco, mas parece que tudo quer que seja ao contrário, cada canto que olho tem um casal, aparece inúmeras coisas para que eu lembre de você e dos nossos momentos juntos, e a dor só aumenta, o coração só aperta cada vez mais e eu já não consigo segurar as lágrimas em nenhum canto em que eu esteja (e você sabe como eu odeio chorar, ainda mais quando estou em um lugar público)....

Acho que vou me isolar dentro do meu quarto, abraçar meu urso (não o que você me deu), gastar o resto do meu dinheiro com doces (Sendo que desde aquele dia eu não consegui mais comer) e passar os dias chorando e ouvindo musica triste, até que essa dor toda passe e que eu finalmente consiga te esquecer.

Te odeio pelo o que fez comigo.

[ricoka]

Get to know me meme

tagged by mimocca

Repost this. Do not reblog. Tag ten people that you want to get to know better. 

name: Carina

Time and date of current moment: 17:53 aka 05:53 pm (UTC +01:00) to be really exact

Average of hours of sleep: probably 7-8 sadly

last thing I googled: at least 95% sure it was Agent Carter because I can't remember names

nicknames: I don't really have one??

Birthday: March 31st

Gender: Cis female

Sexual Orientation: lord if I knew... I DO know that it's not heterosexual though but I'm still figuring out the specifics

Height: 179/180 cm so 5'10 and 1/2?? 5'11???

Favorite Color: Lavender

Lucky Number: 13

The first word that comes to my mind: yeah

How many blankets I sleep under: at least 1 but during winter I usually use a second one as well

Favourite characters: Peggy Carter, Steve Rogers, Jemma Simmons, Leo Fitz, Katniss Everdeen, Peeta Mellark, Kurt Hummel, Blaine Anderson, Santana Lopez, Mercedes Jones... I was trying to narrow it down here but in reality I have so many...

One place that makes me happy: home

Favorite movie: right now I think it's safe to say it's Captain America - The Winter Soldier but Love Actually is my favourite Christmas movie. Also most Harry Potter movies and 13 going on 30 and A Cinderella Story because I love movies like that and I've seen them both way too often.

Favourite TV shows: Agent Carter (!!!!! seriously everyone should watch it), Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D, How to get away with murder, the Flash, Galavant is pretty cool too and I always loved Gilmore Girls, ((adding a tentative Glee))

What are you wearing right now: sweatpants that have seen better times and an old t-shirt and hoodie both belonged to my brother once upon a time

Last book you read: I finished Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro about two weeks ago after reading it for months and I started reading A Man called Ove by Fredrik Backman last week

Favourite beverage: Actually it's water which is really boring but the truth?? I loved drinking Vanilla Coke every now and then and I love strawberry daiquiries but yeah... water

Last movie I saw at the theaters: Mockingjay part 1 in november

Dream holiday: San Diego Comic Con 2015 tbh... no but I really want to go to New Zealand one day!

Dream wedding: ((Hopefully not mine)) Idk man orz not sure I want to marry, maybe one day I want to but today is not that day... But if I do I'm not sure I'm gonna be able to afford what I would want for my wedding.

Dream job: Hah... One that I actually like. Jk, I'd love to be fashion designer tbh but that seems like a very idealistic goal but I'd like to try. The other option is a job were I can actually help people, make their lifes better and maybe make some change for some people.

I tag klainelopez and kikikurt because you've both tagged me in things before so I don't feel to weird tagging you. But feel free to do it!!! I want to know more about everyone! Mutuals, follower !! everyone

Do it, it's nice!! And thank you Mimo for tagging me! I forgot to do it sooner because I was at work when I got the notification

[ricoka]

sigh I try not to be upset about notes but I always end up obsessing anyway and then I get sad again and wonder what's wrong with what I'm doing. and then I want to stop and get better at the same time for a while. then I forget about for a while again and then I start posting stuff again and the whole circle starts again

and it's super annoying because no matter how sad I get I won't stop drawing (obv because I like it) and I won't stop posting but I can't not care and this is becoming a problem because it really brings me down even though it shouldn't and sigh

why am I so dumb when it comes to this and why is it so hard for me to concentrate on the fun and the progress I make instead of notes. this is so stupid I honestly can't believe I'm upset about it every damn time

[ricoka]

the fact that the first thing in this episode is Wemma fucking in a storage room/class room makes me so fucking uncomfortable and scared to watch the rest of the episode