#...depression

[dollfaceinlace]

im so sorry i can’t let the bad things go and that i probably wont be able to let go of that statement as well. it’s just that… i need to remember so that i won’t be hurt again and that when everything fails i won’t be as shocked. that pessimistic voice in my head will say, -see we saw that coming-; i really want to believe that everything will be okay for us and that one day we won’t be broken but it’s feels like a lie. you’re going to leave one day and the both of us will be even MORE broken…..fuck why do i think these things? one fight won’t break us apart (the beginning of the end) stfu brain. summer isn’t going anywhere. right?

[bossmarx]

FLAWS AND ALL

I was asked yesterday on what do I consider as my strengths and weaknesses as a person, all I could answer was I'm too much of a perfectionist even for my own standards. I always think I could do better yet I always do things below my standards, try so hard on reaching my goals but always reach somehow just in the middle of the target. Being this way works both ways but it always seems to tilt on the negative side. There are times you feel like you're the best in what you do but get discouraged with shameful results, times when everything is on the right path but you always get lost, times when you think you're enough but always fall short. I wish I was enough. There's only so much you can do...and I'm feeling I'm at the limits, and it's depressing.