today was one of those days that reminded me of old life. how i used to be, how i used to feel. i laughed. i had so much fun. i felt like i belonged. it was great.
there was also so major shit to deal with today and i’m also so tired. but it was good.
so here’s today in a series of bullet points:
woke up too early to a text from my sister who’s gone away camping wondering if i was awake so she could talk and it turns out that one of her friends is very much Not Okay and my sister was stressing about that as she should have been and now the friend’s mom is involved and i still don’t know the whole story but it’s not good
got ready for work and had starbucks as one does every sunday morning
i had a new shift today because i changed my availability so i was closing which was so much more fun
there might have been a lot of laughter at the expense of someone that we used to work with that was terrible and i might have been the source of it because i showed one of my friend/coworker/manager (it’s a complicated relationship that i absolutely never stress over - i do) a video last night that he might have sent to our assistant general manager
my one friend who dropped off the face of the planet yesterday and had me so scared yesterday showed up to work and eventually ended up having a good chat about everything and our boss was so good to him about everything because it was more complicated than not just showing up to work and we talked about how worried everyone was yesterday about him because we really were both of our managers that where at work yesterday approached me to see if i knew what was going on because they know him and i are such good friends and like i told our one manager a few things that i know about him and that scare me about his personality when he gets like this (again it was the manager i absolutely don’t have a complicated relationship with) but it was good he was there and i feel better about things and i hope next time something bad happens he doesn’t not respond
i had my favourite lunch in the mall and like felt like i am wanted as a friend because my friend/coworker/manager/complicated relationship and i took lunch at the same time today and like when i was going downstairs he told me to wait for him before i went to get food because he knew that i was going to my favourite place and he wanted to come with and i just sometimes need to be validated with people showing that they like being friend even though i went out with that same person last night with a very small group of people i just need to be validated
so on lunch we end up having a few different conversations about a few different things with a very different people and one conversation ends up being about how this one person got on with a manager that was recently fired and how this friend of the manager claims he knew way more about what was going on before me and my friend/coworker/manager when we were very much apart of the group of people that originally went to our general manager with a large list of complaints about this piece of shit person that used to work with us and also my friend is a manager so he knows more than rest of us because that’s how it works so we are laughing our faces off at this kid because he knows nothing and then at some point later we are still joking about it and i was like as if we didn’t know more about that whole thing than this random kid we work with and my friend/coworker/manager ends up telling me how i’m one of his closest confidants at the store so no shit i knew a ton of what was going on and also i worked with that piece of shit all the time
at some point my coworker who’s the head of the fan club for the fired manager tells me jokingly that me and the fired manager would make a good couple and i die laughing because i don’t date and also ew so i tell him to go and tell that to someone that i’m close with in the store and see how much they laugh so he eventually tells that to my friend/coworker/manager and that person tells him that if he ever says that again he will push him down the stairs and this is all very much a joke that we all very much understand we were just being dramatic and at some point i make some comment about how i love how they all jump to my defence and my coworker who has become the butt of all the jokes is like YA why do you all side with Lo? and at this point i’m standing between two guys who i was hanging out with last night outside of work and we are all just like because we are friends which is such a weird thing to me still i have friends real live people that like spending time with me it’s rather confusing
also last night we all decided that we are staying out of our one friend’s love life because there is this whole thing with our friend and another person who works in the store and everyone is so involved in it and it’s just a mess but also totally fine and we are like okay bud we will leave it alone so then tonight he texts me looking for restaurant suggestions for their date and it’s like i thought we were staying out of this so that’s a thing too
idk i just had fun today it was all over the top and so unnecessary but also so much fun i haven’t laughed this hard or this often for such a long time it was just such a good day
