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Simply Absurd

I couldn’t tell you the last time I wrote, for me truly. I’ve been doing most of my writing for a paycheck or a degree lately. But sometimes you have to just write because you’ve had a lot of life pass you by and you want to decompress and put it down. So much time passes that sometimes you forget that you live in that bubble of perception. It’s not until I read Camus that I feel more awake. Following the absurd existential with quiet meditation in west Old Campus, I couldn’t even feel stoned as I vaped past a failed stream in Fairfax Villa that held some unknowing hostages.

So I’m driving back from the airport and after long and thick one I have a sudden realization listening to Chain of Missing Links. I’m stopped and attaining the present and it all comes flooding together. Absurdity, chaos, letting go, order, pain and suffering. “To be in this world, To be this fleshy temple.” You know that this reality is truly an absurd one. I’ve gotten that much from this short of an existence. I’ve seen the magic of being present and pushing for your dreams. It makes the shittiest people in your life not so shitty. Rather just it’s your karma that they’re there. So accept it. Just knowing that even they don’t know whats going on makes you feel like at least no matter what happens, not even they fucking know a thing about this place.

I will keep to moving on and focusing. I’m getting my life back together, nothings going to stop that

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