#10.14.15

[dreamingskyhigh]

I saw a post that Mila Kunis posted on Facebook. She talked about how it took a while to be with Ashton Kutcher, but in the end it was worth it because he's her soulmate and that it was their destiny to be together. Well while going through the comments I found one person who said "that why can't you celebrate the fact that you have a family and that you two made the choice to stay together". At least something very similar along those lines. The commenter also said that she didn't believe in destiny/soulmates, because "life is full of choices. You either decide to stay together or you don't". All of this got me to thinking, I used to never believe in love at first sight, destiny, or soulmates. I think that yes, if you do put in commitment with someone that you care about and both put in 100%, then yes there a chance of a good marriage. But I also believe that you can spend how ever amount of time with someone but that doesn't mean that you'll fall in love with them. You either have feelings for that person or you don't. When I met Casey, I never believed in love at first sight and I still don't, I admit that I had a huge attraction to him but it wasn't love at first sight. I also admit that I've recently became a believer in destiny/fate. Only because I wished/prayed at night to meet a guy that had all the characteristics that I look for in a man. He didn't enter my life right away, but when I least expected it. I believe in destiny because I feel like Casey came into my life for a reason, and it hasn't felt the same since he left(along with a various of other reasons why I believe that notion). I'm not sure if I believe in soulmates, but I'm not against it either. At the end of the day, I believe you need actual "love" to keep a marriage together. It may have not been destiny to bring you two together, but "all you need is love."

[with-daily-goodness-blog]

Oct. 14, 2015

didn’t look at the clock once in art history, and raised hand for hard question! first time raising hand

lunch with isaias, josue, and john. Turkey burgers!!!

fencing was confusing but emily was sweet after and tim showed instructions to me personally, fixed back shoulder movement issue

learned about girl and boy arms

went home and did footwork drill, getting better! (almost easier in bare feet on carpet?)

insane lightning and thunder and hailing, out and about for all of it!!

andrew came over for dinner, ate curry and stayed til 9

bonded on porch. so much laughing!!!! missed him

jacket still being used by fg

[jennitaals]

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

There are honestly, seriously, no words that can ever describe how much I miss him and how much I love him. I mean it when he’s literally in every single one of my thoughts. I don’t think anyone will ever understand what I’d do and give to be able to be with him. There’s nothing that I want more than to be the one who makes him smile and laugh. There’s honestly not a greater sight in the entire world beside his smile and laugh. Oh, how I miss seeing his smile and hearing his laugh soooooooooooo very, very, very, much. Anyone who gets to see that on a daily basis are beyond lucky. I just wish I was lucky, too...

[theabearr]

The past two days have honestly been one of the best days :) Slowly slowly I want to recreate my existence in his life and I hope he doesn't mind I still like him, but someday I hope we become good friends Sorry for all the bother I've cause you up until now and maybe possibly in the near future :)

[give-me-a-fucking-reason]

Fuck everything. I'm tired of dealing with your attitude... Usually I can tolerate it, but right now, just, no. I'm just gonna go fucking sleep.

[astralxprojections]

I just wanna be near you all the time and hear all your dumb ass jokes and be in my car with you and get stoned then fuck even though its so tiny you make me feel so good not just sexually hahaha idk how else to explain it i just wish you were here i want to feel you next to me all night all the time, damn you got me on some gay shit 😂

[angelishere407]

DICK IS NOT THE REMEDY FOR EVERYTHING!

Why do some men think that dick makes everything better? I mean don't get me wrong because I absolutely love sex and yeah, dick does come in handy, especially on lonely nights, but it is only a temporary distraction.

Like right now I'm sick with a terrible head cold. I was telling my friend with sometime benefits how awful I feel and his response? "Ya might need a lil bit of me up in ya, lol." I told him unless you're a box of Thera-Flu, you're of no help to me. I wanted to curse him out but I didn't want to get upset.

Another example is when I had surgery and could barely walk a couple of months ago due to all of the pain I was in, all I heard from the person I was seeing at the time (who I kicked to the curb) was "I can't wait until you heal so I can get some."

I bet if I broke an arm or a leg I would get the same responses..."ya need some dick up in ya to make ya feel better!"

That's why I am so glad I'm moving out of state...to get away from these selfish, one-track minded men who only think of themselves. Never once did I hear him say "Do you want me to bring you some soup, orange juice or medicine?" Selfish, self-serving mutha fuckas get sick!