#11:28am

[ajyal-azez]

تلك الطمأنينة الموجودة داخل قلبك، أود أن أعيشها كلها معك.

[onelampost]

polysomnography

a lucid dream

is taking control of me

im wanting to go back to sleep

to relieve a horrifying memory

[diaries-of-a-hopeless-soul]

Entry #10: May 30th, 2018 (11:27am)

These entries may be recent but this feeling of loss and hopelessness and despair isn't new. I've had these feelings since middle School. Sure, they weren't as intense as they are now but that doesn't mean I wasn't aware of them. However, no one else seemed to notice. I was, and still am, the invisible child. It sounds like a superhero name and that's what made it seem kinda cool when I was younger. You see, it's easy to fake a smile. Even my high school dance teacher, Ms. W., she said the one thing she'd remember about me is how I'd walk into class with a big smile on my face. When someone asks you "how are you?" It's not because they care. It's just a form of getting. Instead of telling that person, no matter who they are, how you're doing and feeling you're supposed to just say "fine, and you?" And then you get on with your life only to repeat it with every other person you meetn because no one really give a shit about you. We go to therapists to help solve our problems, not to change the way we feel. More times than not, all they do is tell people "it's okay to fill this way." Well I don't want to feel this way at all. It's not okay. I'M NOT OKAY.

[lightningferin]

when someone's uncle is playing kill la kill on your church piano

[imnotreallythatpoetic]

From thirty-one to zero.

K.O

[s-implethoughts]

I feel like everyone is ignoring me. I see that abby and eivind are active on facebook messenger or was active a few mins ago but they do haven't respond to any of my messages. I need them right now. They at least get it.

[s-implethoughts]

It was the thought of you that made me stop what I was doing the other night. Cause deep down, I still have hope.