#12:2

[kingconor12-2]

How to make a cherry berry and coke

[alloutofwhiskey-blog]

7/9/2016 - Saturday

I said don't care what other people think and then I go stressing today about Caleb. Btw he's the cute boy who told me about Pokemon Go. He's really cute. And I have a crush. And he didn't respond for five hours, he read the messages I sent through snapchat (because we are talking through that instead of tinder). He's lucky, he should feel honored. I don't use snapchat. I wouldn't even use it for Brandon, which I don't think he really used it in the first place. But I'm using it to talk to Caleb. I don't really send pictures of myself. I have twice. Which is a step for me. I'm the type of person that looks better in person than pictures. Also, I look better in spur of the moment pictures. Not good at taking ones of myself. So Caleb doesn't message me, and he reads the message that I sent that was a question, asking if he plays other games other than Pokemon, which I know he does. He plays smash. I creeped his Facebook. Found it through his snapchat title. That's also how I think I found Brandon. Creepy or resourceful? Caleb doesn't respond, five hours later, until about half an hour ago, 11pm. He sends me a picture of the Psyduck he caught. Which is funny because he knows I was struggling all day yesterday to catch one. And the day before. I keep finding it around, and then I can't catch it. But he tends to avoid the personal question, answering only the ones about the game, or any kinks he has, which is what we talked about all last night. Some are interesting. He's a sub, and I'm more submissive/passive, and I would like someone to take control, so that becomes a problem. But I would like to get to know him better, and if it came to it, I would do what makes him happy because I'm a people pleaser. But I tried to work in there that I wouldn't do anything sexual unless I was in a committed relationship with that person. I failed. I didn't want to say what, but this is anonymous. So he has a foot fetish. And he said it's tough to get guys to take a picture of their feet. And it's tired, and I said I would help if I could. And he said help what? And I was hoping he'd say something like why can't you. He didn't, and I responded saying I don't know. I'm falling asleep. He didn't respond. He talked a bit this morning, but that was it. I can feel him drifting away, and I don't want that to happen. We dress similarly; if we are the same height, then we can interchange clothes. He's cute, brown hair, which I find to be more attractive than blonde (Brandon), really darker hair. He's nerdy. He's got kinks, which I told him I'm up for trying almost anything, it's just never prompted itself. I'm going to message him in the morning, and hope we can carry it on. Just ask him how his day was today, but tomorrow. Find a way to get to know more about him and get a date. I would ask him out for that, but then I'd feel obligated to pay. And I don't have that money. I would like to go get food and then look for Pokemon. Maybe something more when we get a little closer. For now, good night.