#18.4.2022

[pangarina-angelin-a]

gedicht und photo von pangarina-angelin-a

[rbf451]

Joonas’ ig story 18.4.2022

[mansikka-wizard-art]

this came to me in a dream. a strawberry milk tiefling

[prosy-days]

April 18, 2022 - Day 303

Book club night, poetry for National Poetry Month.

[godsnameisjoy]

PRINCELY REACTIONS

Date: 18 April 2022

Duration: 78 minutes at 10:07 PM

Depth:

My attention, last night, did get a chance to reach a depth of mind that is deeper than any mind-place reached in the last 6 sessions. That is 6 straight days of a delay in my growth as a meditator. That’s a lost opportunity.

The opportunity to grow was lost due to my own doing. I have not rewired my responses to trauma. The wiring is still such that I fight in order to hold onto the little good that is left in me. I allow my strong survival qualities to protect nobler desires like immortality. It’s not going to work. I can either survive or immortalise. I can’t have both.

I can allow my peace to respond in every human interaction I find myself in or I can continue sitting on old psychological furniture while responding. I keep my peace vulnerable by not fortifying it. I mean to say that I don’t have a solid plan to follow up on at 8:46 AM, 19 April that will safeguard my peace for an entire day.

At the end of this day, I will be meditating, this much I am sure of. Do I have anything in place that will keep me growing spiritually through all the hours prior to a nightly meditation session? Unfortunately not. I don’t have a single exercise in mindfulness in place that will help begin the fading process of my survival instincts.

[puregrief]

بحب فشخ لما أنزل ستوري وبعدين أحط عليها أغنية والأغنية تليق بالضبططططط كأنها كانت شغالة وأنا بعمل الستوري رغم إنها مكانتش شغالة! كنت عارفة إني ساحرة!🧙🏻✨

[joysurrender84]

Of course I woke up and felt sicky. Just a bad bad day. 🙁

Past 4 am now. *sigh*

Ok, ok, Imma be ok.

[puregrief]

Where you been?