Annders - Dezember 2015 by Annders
it s again this time of the year where everyone starts thinking about the past twelve months. most of the times every year has it ups and downs. also 2015. in my opinion you can translate this into a mix. a dj mix should have its ups and downs. different emotions should be caused. thats what i like most. two hours. enjoy.
At first I couldn't believe I had a drawing for every month, there was the idea in my head that I barely draw this year, but it looks really productive now.
I want you to excuse me right now, as you are 1 bottle of red wine deep and are streaming Adele’s “25″. Let’s just have a little recap of what 2015 was, and what we hope for 2016.
Well this year was....a hoot and a half.
Work/Finances: The year started and you officially stepped foot in a hospital as an employee for the first time. Sure, you’ve been employed since you were 13 and what not, but this was your first time being employed not by your mother. Of course you were nervous. But let me tell you this, you fucken killed it. Everyone knows it: you, your bosses, and the doctors you work with. Not a day goes by where you don’t do your best work, and get appreciated for it. Sure, the pay sucks, but you know you’d do this for free anyway. But TBH it doesn’t suck THAT much. On 12/30/14, you finally paid off all your credit card debt. By 12/31/15, you have a pretty nice savings going on. You bought a car, make payments, and treat yourself well every month. Like enough. You don’t deserve this much stuff. Start giving back to your family.
Family: Your relationship with your father, mother, and sister is great. Like after the shit year that was 2014 in terms of parental relationships, 2015 went surprisingly well. As you’ve always suspected, they just get frustrated when they see you doing “nothing” and this was obvi remedied by working super hard. And your sister, damn your sister is fucken great. Like she’s so funny and definitely has the charm you believe you have. I mean she could be smarter and make better decisions when it comes to academics but hey, she’ll figure it out at some point, stop being so tough on her. You have a goddaughter now. Like who would’ve thought. I mean obviously Beto would make you his compadre, but I’d never think it would be at the young age of 22. Arabella Hope Ayon- you love her so much and you feel so lucky she’s your goddaughter. Make an effort to see her once you get really busy with medical school.
Friends: Well your New Year’s resolution 2015 sure worked out as planned. You promised yourself you wouldn’t be the first one to txt, make plans, or go out of your way for people. Sure, your phone buzzed less, however, when it did buzz, you know it was from someone you care. With that comes this warning: YOU CAN TXT FIRST SOMETME YOU ASSHOLE. Like you KNOW some people deserve the txt first lol. We get it, you made your point. Make an effort to txt first the people who you know you matter to in 2016.
So you did lose some “friends” because of this resolution, but who fucken cares. They were piece of shits honestly.
School: LOL. So this was probably the highlight of your life. You applied for medical school and submitted your primary application June 4, 2015. At first you submitted to about 22 schools. Once the secondaries started coming in, you were like “wow wtf this is a lot of essays/writing.” SO you only submitted to 9 schools. The 9 schools you know you would be 100% happy with if you got accepted. Everyone thought you were crazy. 9 schools. Like no one does that. You know your record isn’t that hot to be that confident. But on the contrary, you applied to 9 because you WEREN’T confident. You thought “there’s no point in wasting 1000s of dollars to not be accepted anyway.” But alas, you got an interview at the school of your dreams, the medical you literally always said you were going to go to: Keck School of Medicine at USC. One thing you are confident about are your interview abilities. You always said that once you got an interview, you were in. On 9/22/15 you had your interview. Sure, you rocked it, could’ve been a bit better, but TBH you were working to hard to interview prep. BEHOLD, on 10/15/15, the first day medical schools could accept people...within the first hour....YOU WERE ACCEPTED. You cried, you txted friends, you called your mother. BUT IT GETS BETTER?! You were accepted to the accelerated MD/MPH program. EVEN BETTER?! You received a full tuition scholarship to the MPH portion which is like $50k. You’re so humble. Not posting this on facebook like all the other simps lol.
Camp: OH CAMP. You’re terrified. You have 3 other coze and need to plan a whole quarter of training for you r volunteers, and then plan a week of camp for your volunteers and campers. There will be so many people looking to you for guidance- step up.
Relationships: So you finally went on a date. You liked this girl. Or did you? Did you like the person, or did you like the idea of someone liking you? You’re not sure. She was a nice girl, but...you were honest with yourself. You weren’t going to make time for her. You’re too busy...well that’s what you told yourself and her. But it’s true. Bye.
Grandmother: She passed away. May 15. You woke up to the sound of your father on your phone. You could tell something was wrong. She wasn’t dead yet, but you could feel it. Your dad left to go drop off your sister when the phone call came. You knew. You got the chill. Your mother cried. You were blank. No tears right now, you had things to do. You booked the flights. You called the fam. You planned. You kept busy. It wasn’t real. Once you arrived to the rancho...you wept. Oh you cried. You walked in and there was the beautiful cold wooden box. And there she lay, beautiful as always. But unlike all your previous trips to mexico, she wasn’t there to hug you. She wouldn’t give you her bendicion this time around. After the ceremony you went to her house. Her cardigan still had her distinct sent. Honestly. You think about her every day since her passing. Hear her voice, smell her perfume. You miss her so much. I really wish she was here, to see me become a doctor. In her eyes...she knew you’d make it. She never doubted you.
2016: Will this be the year you finally go to the gym LOL. You did pretty good in 2014 for like 3 months straight, then again in 2015 for 1 month straight. But you somehow find a way to get busy and lose focus. Other than that, nothing much to change. You’re becoming who you thought you would be. Dr. Guzman, MD, MPH. Jesus Christ that’s pretentious as hell. But it sure looks nice. (PS that’s the first time you write it down).
Wow in true Elliot fashion I’m completely late to this cuz I got caught up in screaming at SWTOR but BETTER LATE THAN NEVER
It’s still 2015 somewhere in the world DON’T WORRY IT AIN’T OVER YET
LIKE OK SUCKING BALLS doesn’t even BEGIN to cut how bad this year was for me. My parents have progressively become so abusive and inconsiderate that they’re actually kicking me out For Real this coming year and refuse to do anything about it. My depression neither got worse nor got better, but it was an incredibly stressful and unproductive year in terms of my own growth, both as a person and as an artist.
I admit I didn’t draw as much this year. In fact, I don’t even have anything to show for the end of year art improvement meme because I didn’t get to sit and DO ART as often as I’d have liked. And I admit it’s because I became a full time raider on WoW on 2 guilds and have joined up several RP guilds as well on alts. It is time consuming and I’m in too deep at this point to back out. But I gotta balance my time out better. This past month was rough but I managed to still throw out one last hurrah and made some art.
My relationships with people have been incredibly rocky, perhaps because I end up spending so much time on WoW, and perhaps because Real Life Shit Happens and it wrecks with everything I had planned. In any case, drama happened and I lost some good people along the way.
But fear not I gained some lovely friends as well!
Specifically all of you guys in Ship Squad ( @yaoi-jeezuz @artistictyranitar @thehegerlich @zephyrwise @archmagejackson @burning-yaungol @quirkydarling @bubblypixles @askilyenasunhair @mothclaws @lotuscodex + draggo [did i miss anyone sfhsdfjksd]) and @blindedfatewra you guys have all made this year better for me right when it was getting real bad. I don’t regret joining the squad/guild at all because I got to be a part of something outside my comfort zone and it’s been a wild ride all the way through.
Shoutouts to @punsona and @noodlemangos again because I’m a terrible friend and should talk to them more BUT I GOT TO BEFRIEND THEM AT THE VERY LEAST. It’s just nice to have people to dork out over anime with considering I’ve all but left most of my former circles due to DRAMA in the past few years.
Also a mention to @kiyagosa for being such a sweet supportive wonderful person who never fails to throw me a message when I need it. Thank you for your words honestly because of all the times I was down, your messages did cheer me up and I am grateful.
And another mention to @mori-sketchbook and @kaedianmori cuz again im a terribad friendo and you guys came late in the year but in the short time we’ve known each other I am grateful that we even met. Both of your are really sweet and I really wanna get to know you guys better so 2016!!! MAYBE!!!!! YEAAAHAHAHHAHAAHFKSJASSKLFJ o(-<
Of course I have to mention @tiny-raptor as well because THEY CONTINUE TO BE MY LONGEST LASTING FRIENDSHIP ON THE INTERWEBS LIKE WOW give us an award or something we cool B)
Last but not least, a wonderful wonderful huge ass thank you to my fiance @clockworkhoots for being the amazing guy he is and even tho the year was shit for both of us we pulled through and learned a lot! Like it wasn’t all smooth sailing because 1) long distance 2) parents 3) LIFE IN GENERAL GETTING IN THE WAY but i think our relationship grew stronger by getting through it. In the coming year I promise to be a better man cuz I know I kinda sucked and part of it was my fault entirely. Feel free to smack me around more if I fuck up tho <3
AND YEAH this got long but lord I love all you guys and I hope for the best in 2016! More friends? More shenanigans? HOPEFULLY LESS ME SCREAMING INTO THE ABYSS ABOUT VIDYA GAMES???? Oh who am I kidding I’m a fucking husk and am always screaming into the abyss.