#2:46am

[ajyal-azez]

ستأتي رياحك يومًا كلها إليّ.

وأشهد نسائمها وأعتّق حضورها في جوف قلبي، دون أي حراك.

[indridmothman]

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[oceonblue]

رباه لُطْفًا هكذا ينصب سيلاً في يديّ 💙🌻

[lilytrang]

That’s the thing. I used to pride myself in telling myself that nothing hurts anymore, but lately, things been a bit different. I am starting to feel again. I am feeling a mixture of darkness, emptiness, and a sadness that I cannot really pinpoint.

I don’t get nightmares as much as I used to. I don’t dream about demons, darkness, ghosts, or my love ones dying. But the thing is, I do get nightmares. I dream about myself dying and I haven’t told anyone. I haven’t told anyone that I find myself dying in my own dream, and it scares me. It scares me because I haven’t felt darkness for months on end. I haven’t felt like killing myself or simply, not existing in a really long time.

But a part of me, a part of me tells me that when everything hits me, I might not be able to make it. I might not be able to survive the pain that will come at me 100 miles per seconds because it probably won’t even feel close to hours.

I dream about dying, but I don’t feel it. I have nightmares about killing myself or getting into accidents, and I know that’s not okay.

I know I’m not okay.

[panda--palace18]

Is love a choice or a feeling?

- M

[mle-rad]

Can you believe this took me almost 3 hours.

[ajyal-azez]

أركن للهدوء مقعدًا بالجوار وأقول له؛ إن لكَ في قاع صدريّ مكانً مرحّب بك فيه دائماً.

٩ رمضان

[ajyal-azez]

أحمل هذا اللّيل فيَّ،

يسامرني،

يُسليني،

أجول به العالم وأنا وسط مكانيّ.