#3:02pm thoughts

[lilytrang]

Just one small trigger can set my heart flaming once again.

[gumuhit]

There are those people who we spend a long time with working for something, even though most of them end up not being labelled. While there are those people who we just spare a day or 2 weeks talking with, but who can/will make us plunge into something that usually takes some time to be filled and recognized.

[lilytrang]

You'll be okay. You'll be more than okay because if you survived the night you were crying so hard that you felt like your heart would stop beating for even a split moment or when you felt like you couldn't breathe anymore, then you will survive today. You will survive, and then come to a point in your life where you just learn that you have to stop surviving, and to start really actually living.

You'll be okay because when you start living, you realized how much of a difference life feel compare to when you were just living to survive.

It might not be today. It might not be anytime soon, but it will take time to get there. It takes a tremendous amount of time, and on some days, you will relapse and go back to those unpleasant places, but it does not mean you have to stay. It could just be a visitor that you welcome once in a blue moon because after all, you're only human.

It might not be today, but just know you'll be okay. You're going to be alright. It will be alright.