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Temptation

Kind of hard to start when I have so many ideas flowing through my head. The recent events in my life have led me to write openly . Partially to express myself and to exhaust all the self discussions and doubt. Why this, why that, what could have been done differently to change the outcome.

I sometimes scare myself out of change. I am fully aware of what I am doing but I still seek to make myself some sort of normal, continent person that I am not. I want beauty, happiness, love, and all the things that life can give me just like everyone else but I crave excitement, suprise of the unknown, and the dangers that cause me pain and pleasure. I feel like I have wasted thirty years not truly believing in myself or living life by my own agenda. How do I change and grow, when my weakness is temptation?