A Ghost’s touch. (Request)
Prompt: Hi! Would you be able to write an angsty Bucky one shot based off this gif please? miserablemetaphors(.)tumblr(.)com/post/171357499377--Anonymous
Pairing: Bucky x Reader
Note: Angst, cursing, sort of friends with benefits, opening ending. (GIF DOES NOT BELONG TO ME)
Requested by: Anonymous She looked so peaceful, like the cares of the world melted away when her eyes were shut. Blocking away the darkness that consumes her with her dreams of a better life.
Bucky slowly watched over her as his eyes raked down to the steady rise and fall of her chest before his hardened gaze fluttered back up to her slightly swollen lips.
A small reminder of the activities that had taken place not even a few hours ago. The break in her voice when she called out his name, his real name as she trembled in euphoria.
He slowly stood from the bed and began to dress himself.
Silently.
All the years of Hydra taught him to be a Ghost in the darkness so there was never a trace of him anywhere.
Once dressed he glanced down at (Y/N) one more time as he sighed softly.
He wasn’t ready to come out into the world again. He wanted her to have a better life that wasn’t weighed down by the burden of him existing on her shoulders.
He swore to himself that he was going to stop seeing her, yet he found himself back in her arms almost every time.
Though this time was different. After they had cleaned up she had leaned over and whispered three words that shook Bucky to the core.
I love you.
Bucky has never been loved for a long time. He’s been the Winter Soldier for so long he’s not even sure he’s capable of letting someone love him let alone him be in love with another person.
He held her like he always did so she’d fall asleep and just as always he was going to leave before she woke up.
A small smile caressed his lips when he took his flesh index finger and ran it ever so gently down her cheek as he watched her shift in her sleep, but remain unconscious.
Something felt like a prick inside of Bucky’s chest at the thought of never seeing her again, but he had to leave.
He still was a broken man and she deserved better, despite the countless times she told him that he was the only one for her.
You’re just as messed up as I am.
No, I am far worse. I’d be better off dead.
Bucky flinched before pulling away from her as if he had been burned when he glanced down to make sure she didn’t wake up.
He slowly sunk down onto his knees beside the bed when he brushes the small piece of hair that covered her eyes.
Sleep tight my dearest Princess.
His lips brushed over her ear gently.
Maybe one day we will be together, but today is not that day.
He sighs before he stood up.
“Don’t go..” She murmurs as Bucky looks down to her, but her eyes were still shut.
She was sleep talking as he sighs quickly when he leans down and presses a small kiss to her forehead.
Will you be here in the morning?
Probably not.
Why?
Because I just won’t.
Will you stay until I fall asleep?
If you want me to.
I’d like you to.
Lay down.
Bucky remembered the first night he came home with her. It was after an event with the Avengers.
Their eyes had been dancing over the other the whole night when she strolled over to him, slapped her apartment key into his hand and walked away like she was never there.
Have you ever been in love before?
I don’t remember.
Is there anything you do remember of your old life?
Not much.
She railed him with questions that seemed to rile him up until he understood that it’s exactly what she wanted.
You never touch me with your left arm… Why?
Because I don’t want to.
That’s not a reason.
It’s a good enough reason for me. Jesus Christ (Y/N) stop asking me shit when I’m trying to fuck you.
Bucky turned towards the door and scooped up his shoes before slipping them on. He grabbed his tie from the nightstand. It was soaked in saliva which happened only because she got mouthy with him.
He gripped it in his hand before he walked to the door, he didn’t glance back.
He couldn’t.
He knew that if he did… He’d go right back into her arms.
You deserve better.
You’re better.
No, I’m not.
Last time I checked I decided who is better for me.
Last time I checked you make stupid decisions.
Bucky.
(Y/N).
Bucky smiles softly before he twisted the door knob to her apartment as he clicked the lock. He slowly walked out and shut the door.
It was quiet.
Deafeningly quiet.
With tie in his hand he strolled down the hallway, undetected by the cameras of her apartment.
A Ghost.
And just like the night he came and left.
The morning sun bled through the window as (Y/N)’s eyes slowly fluttered open.
She glanced around, not truly expecting to see Bucky there as always.
She was alone.
There was a cold pit in her stomach, but nothing she wasn’t used to.
She stood up and slowly trailed out towards the kitchen and started coffee for the morning. She was naked, but she didn’t honestly care.
She turned to walk towards the fridge when she froze at the sight in front of her.
There hanging on the back of one of the kitchen chairs was Bucky’s suit jacket.
But… He is always careful not to leave anything behind… Why would it be here?
She slowly trailed over to it as she ran her fingers over the material of the jacket when she heard something rustle.
Frowning she opened the jacket to see a small piece of paper sticking out of one of the inside pockets. She slowly removed it from the jacket and unfolded it.
Maybe someday we will be together. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but someday..
Bucky, xxx-xxx-xxxx
She seemed froze in place. He… He actually left his number. Something made her smile as she set the paper onto the table and went about her morning routine.
Maybe you won’t be a Ghost anymore…
Maybe I’ll have more than just a Ghost’s touch...
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