#a.v.s.y.

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Do I dare

Disturb the universe?

Do I dare to eat a peach?

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she doesn’t make me feel fulfilled, but she distracts me from how I am unfulfilled - and that is not enough, but it is still all that there is

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Night of the Kings, Philippe Lacôte (2021)

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Only The Strong

Laura Marling · Song · 2020

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Fruits of My Labor

Waxahatchee · Song · 2021

I’ve been tryin’ to enjoy 

the fruits of my labour

I’ve been cryin’ for you boy

but truth is my saviour 

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in medias res

”The poem follows the epic tradition of starting in medias res (in the midst of things), the background story being recounted later.”

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when i was a teenager i think all i really wanted was to be vera nabakov but i could never find anyone worthy of me, but the temptation is still there, 

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The Legend of Vera Nabokov: Why Writers Pine for a Do-It-All Spouse

“As Laura Miller recently pointed out in Salon, Virginia Woolf and Edna St. Vincent Millay each benefited greatly from truly anomalous marriages of their time, in which their respective husbands assumed a Vera-esque role. Millay’s husband, Eugen Boissevain, reportedly described himself as a feminist and “married the poet Edna St. Vincent Millay with the express purpose of providing her with a stable home life and relieving her of domestic tasks so she could write.””

“Some women writers are, indeed, married to a Vera. Emma Straub, author of Laura Lamont’s Life in Pictures and the forthcoming The Vacationers, describes her husband, Michael Fusco-Straub, as a “sort of Vera”: “My husband does so much for me that I would be embarrassed to offer a list in fear that you would think me unable to tie my own shoes,” Straub says. “I have cleaned our bathroom exactly one time. That is not an exaggeration.” Before Straub sold her short story collection Other People We Married, Fusco-Straub supported the couple financially. He accompanies her on book tour, semester-long teaching jobs, and research trips in addition to reading her work and giving her his frank opinion.”

“Ayelet Waldman, author of Love and Treasure and the New York Times bestseller Bad Mother: A Chronicle of Maternal Crimes, says that prior to committing herself to her own writing, she explicitly pledged to her husband, the Pulitzer Prize-winning Michael Chabon, that she would be his Vera. A former criminal-defense attorney, she decided to be a stay-at-home mother after having her children. But it didn’t last long.“To say it didn't work out was an astonishing understatement. I hated being home,” Waldman says. “I'd fantasized that being his Vera was a way for me to deal with being stuck as a stay-at-home mom—I'd subsume my own ambitions into something ‘greater!’ But that lasted about 48 hours."”