December 24, 2015 Sidenote II
I regret not thinking I deserved more. I regret not saying what was on my mind. I regret not getting mad when I should have. But most of all, I regret not fighting for you back even though by that time, you weren’t mine to fight for anymore. Now it’s too late and you belong to someone else. No matter what though, whether is may be intentional or not, I’ll wait for you. Call me an idiot, a dumb piece of shit, or anything, but I hate hypocrisy so I’m going to follow through with my end when I said “I’ll find you” and “I’ll wait for you.” We’ve made so many promises that I know may never be kept but assuming you’re not totally a terrible human being, I know you’ll get around to completing some. Until May 21, when I graduate. I’ll keep my heart open to everyone around me and even you. But when this day comes, it’ll be a new leaf, another page of an incomplete story and you are not allowed to be apart of it to ruin me. Never will you or any other person hurt me in this way ever again. I wouldn’t be giving my heart to someone as underserving as you. But I told you before that’d I give you one chance, so be it. Hurt me as much as you want. That’s how love works. That’s how it always has.