#acne struggle

[lovedrunkneversober]

Skin Positivity Post ❤️

Super long post ahead. 😊

I've been wanting to share my struggle to everyone, but I was and still (slightly) ashamed to post photos of my skin. Before getting pregnant, I always had sensitive pimple prone skin. My face would get irritated especially when I used the wrong products, but I never had a breakout as bad as the photo from 2017.

When I got pregnant, I luckily had what they call pregnancy glow. My skin was blemish free. It was definitely at its best condition. I never even had to use anything except gentle soap, water, and organic oil (to moisturize).

UNTIL about when Madie reached a year old (that was 2016). I started getting pimples on different parts of my face, which didn't exactly bother me. I always thought they would just go away on their own. Boy was I so wrong! It started with 1 to 3 pimples at a time, and then they just popped out everywhere.

This continued for about almost 3 years. You guys have no idea what I've been through. Don't you even dare tell me I wasn't washing my face enough, or I was putting on too much make up because I did everything I could to make my face better. It really took a toll on my self-esteem.

I didn't bother going to a dermatologist though. I always knew this has something to do internally. I was breastfeeding Madie for 3 years. I couldn't take pills to control my hormones. I always knew they were whacked because of our extended breastfeeding.

When she weaned off the bewbs last February, that's when I noticed my skin starting to get better. Pimples started to heal. My skin regimen became effective. I still get pimples from time to time, especially when I'm in my period (like the photo below TMI. See the pimple above my lip), but it really doesn't affect me so much anymore because pimples heal and dry up quicker now. I also noticed that the less I worry, the faster they go away. I still have a LOT of scars. Yeah, those deep crater like scars. Fortunately, they aren't too obvious when I'm under the sun. But if you look closely, you could really see them. I've learned to be fine and live with it. It doesn't bother me. It may be petty for you, but they are battle scars for me.

So there ya go. Took a lot of guts for me to post this. Just wanted to tell anyone who is suffering bad from acne, you are more than your skin. You will get through this. Trust yourself. 😊

Good night! 😘

[troybarnesbucky]

and the worst part of it all? i’m not embarrassed of going out in public with my acne, it’s seeing people that I know or seeing old friends or family. they never saw me with acne and suddenly my cheeks are covered with acne, and they might bring it up or judge me and it makes me so upset because i literally avoid going out just in case i see someone.

[troybarnesbucky]

I know no one is gonna see this or respond but i just feel so sad because last year was literally my hardest and loneliness year yet, and i wanted to start this year fresh but i feel like my acne getting worse is just a symbol of how my life isn’t just gonna get easier and i can’t just forget the entirety of last year. i feel so gross and ugly and it sucks because I know my acne isn’t gross or ugly, i literally cannot control it despite everything i’ve tried, and i’m just so sad. i don’t want this anymore i don’t wanna do this or deal with it.

[troybarnesbucky]

I don’t know if anyone will see this but i’m not having a good night. my acne is really stressing me out and making me upset and I don’t know what to do about it. I know i shouldn’t care but i’ve tried everything except for birth control and oral medications bc i don’t have insurance to cover it, but i literally don’t know what to do anymore and i feel so sad because this isn’t something i wanna deal with and i’m scared that it’s never gonna go away and i feel so ugly.

[myskinbattle]

February 13th, 2016 Okay so experiment here. I drank alcohol tonight and also ate a whoooooole bunch of sweets. My skin is pretty good right now other than some redness. I have a suspicion that tomorrow, because of all the junk I consumed today, my skin will break out in the morning. I'm going to bed now, let's see what happens tomorrow !

[benitoswhore]

God gave me acne so that I wouldn't intimidate people with the beauty of an acne free face

M

[katterochtankar]

Förbannade jävla acne.. Att man aldrig blir fri från dig? I 6 år har jag kämpat.. Självkänslan har fått ta en hel del stryk.. Det går inte en dag utan att jag mår dåligt över min hy, att man sen hela tiden blir påmind av ömmande stora finnar på hakan gör ju inte saken bättre.. Bilderna tog jag igår & bara sen dess har jag fått ett antal fler finnar.. Blir bara så jävla less.

[glowyjjk]

Whenever someone gets 1-2 pimples once a month whines about how their skin is awful and feel disgusting.. I feel even worse about my own skin, It's like.. while your skin is flawless for 90 %, mine is really bad all the time. I have pimples every day of my life, so believe me.. your pimple is not that big of a deal, it will be gone in a day or two, while mine will just keep coming. 

I'm not saying you're not allowed to feel bad about it, ofcourse you are. If I had flawless skin most of the time and a pimple popped up I surely would feel bummed about it, but that's not the case. 

Acne is something that I'll have to deal with every day. It hurts my selfconfidence, because I feel like everything people see is my acne - not me. And I am well aware some people have even worse acne than me, but I still struggle with it. Ugh, acne can just fuck off.