#adl.

[domisong]

I’m actually feeling really happy and I feel like I haven’t felt this way in a long time. My heart feels warm and I’m feeling excited. I’m so happy!

[domisong]

I just have so much love to give.

[domisong]

Because

For awhile now, I've always thought that I was going through this horrible journey on my own. While everyone seemed to handle their problems well, I felt like my world was breaking apart. It's true that no one could tell what was going on in my mind because it hid it so well, but that wasn't anything to be proud of. It only caused more grief and pain, but for some crazy reason I told and expected myself to handle my own problems without the help from others.

But from this, I've grown a lot and I've seen a side of me that I'd never thought I'd ever seen. And to be honest, I wasn't proud of it because I've changed drastically within a short amount of time. It was scary because it was so sudden... The way I thought, the things I'd say,the way I treated myself, and the way I acted to other people... I mean, everything was immediately changed.

But overall, I'm not writing this post to tell you that I'm done and out of this journey. I'm writing this as a reminder to myself. Though this adventure was tough and took a lot of energy out of me, I must know and understand that I was not the only one who went through this change. Others around me and those who were affected by me had to go through it too. I was selfish to think that I was the only one who was going through hell and back, but everyone else was too.

It might take forever till I get back on track and be who I was before, but maybe this time around I'll think differently and not be too selfish. I guess I'm not the only crazy one in this neighborhood.

[domisong]

And it's "Officially"... you know the rest of this inside joke.

Thanks for being there for me no matter what I put you through. Just don't do anything stupid that I might have to kill you for it. If you know what I mean.

Since day one

http://domisong.tumblr.com/post/652211209/i-promised-you-a-post-so-here-it-goes

[domisong]

dear andrew lee

Dear Andrew Lee,

Honest to God I was afraid that I would see this in my tumblr inbox only because I knew I would have to sit here and try to think of something to say. But in all honesty, I cannot come up with anything to say to you. I think it’s because you already know how much you have impacted my life and probably know alot about me. You’re probably the only guy who knows almost everything about me.

The only thing that pops into my head at this moment is just a thank you. Thank you for everything that you have ever done for me and sticking by my side when I needed you the most. Thank you for accepting me the way I am and thank you for going through all the trouble that I put you through. Thanking you for keeping in contact and asking me how everything is even though your busy with your college stuff. Thank you for caring and supporting me. But I guess what I really want to say is thank you for making me stronger. You’ve actually changed my life completely and it’s super rare for anyone to change me into a different person.

You’ve helped me see alot of different things in this world and you have made me more mature towards everything. You’ve inspired me to become a leader, strong willed person, and etc. You’ve helped me to gain some confidence in my life and definitely helped me to become active around my community. You’ve inspired me alot and done alot for me. I’ve never got to thank you nor show you what you’ve helped me to become.

But I guess it’s my turn to start changing the lives of other people just like you have for me. Your personality and motivation is something I am going to cherish and show other people because those are the things that have changed me. So thank you for everything you have done for me.

-dominiquehsong.

[domisong]

Even after all this, you still know how to bring chills up my spine and a big smile on my face. I don’t know how you do it, but it amazes me how it still works on me.

[domisong]

2:26 a.m

No matter how much I try to get rid of this feeling by telling myself to get over it and by forcing myself to get my mind off of it, I still spend hours and hours thinking about you. There are moments where I want to grab my phone and start talking to you about everything. I want to tell you about my day and how much it sucked because I couldn’t spend it with you. I wanna laugh at your jokes and I want to go on adventures with you. I want to watch and giggle at you as you try to find ways to entertain me. I want to feel that butterfly feeling in my stomach, as the time gets closer and closer to that final minute where I finally get to see you. I want to be happy with you and reminisce about all the fun events we went to. I want to hold your hands and hug you.

But in the end, who am I kidding. We all know that it won’t happen.

I walk/ drive around the community and get random urges to do things that I can’t do with you like: drive to your house and just talk to you, run into your arms and ask you for a hug when I get a lonely, invite you to places every time I get the opportunity to go somewhere with a friend, take you out on a late night adventures, make a song with you, spend hours on the phone with you while we watch the same t.v show late at night, and etc.

I catch myself smiling and feel my heart throbbing… but I have to stop and tell myself that this is just a figment of my imagination. That this is just want I want. As much as I want it to be real, it can’t be. Because I’m stuck in this little bubble while you seem to have found ways to move on.

[domisong]

It's been a year since you've brought me a rose to elite. Since we've sat down and had our long conversation. Why does that seem like it was only a couple weeks months ago?