#ag-reads

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i had fun drawing my guys in the throes of their trauma! figured it'd be fitting for someone on team tragedy to do this laskdlal

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recently realized that so many of my drawings are based on. music, or music related things. i'm cursed to get inflicted with earworms all the time huh

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it's my birthday :D yippee!

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i'll post full refs for at least three of these guys by the end of june, but for now i wanted to publicly talk a little about my group of ocs that i refer to as the undead film club. i know i'm uh. not the best at talking about my many aus and story ideas so here is an attempt at that for once lol

note that while they have been living rent free in my head, i mostly only have their personalities and vibes down rather than any names, so names are mostly placeholders for now ;; and also that even in the rough stages, their stories involve death and their choice, or lack thereof, of it as an important focal point.

here's the basics: the undead film club is a group of five film enthusiast friends who are all different types of undead. the unofficial leader of the club is uma, a ghost, who discovered her love for movies after her death, and after meeting li, a jiangshi, and adan, a vampire, formed the club over their shared interest in film.

while not every member can make it to their meetings every month, they all make an effort to watch the movie recommended and post in their group chat about it. adan is usually the one who misses the most, though at times li has to cancel on short notice for his exorcist work. uma has never missed a meeting, and their other two members can usually be counted on showing. since some of them have more free time than others, some members get together and have unofficial meetings outside of their monthly ones.

being undead and usually not having a lot of money, a good amount of their meetings are held at li's place, though at times when they want to watch new movies, they sneak into the theater. a few of them have almost been caught before, but no one's gotten revealed to be undead yet.

i haven't yet planned out a full story for any of them, but i think everyone in the film club struggles either with having been killed at a fairly young age and returned to life with no choice in the matter, or having had a life they are now glad to have escaped. the undead film club is a place for them to avoid thinking about their troubles, but also a place to open up to their peers who went through similar situations. i'd say that all in all, i'm not expecting it to have a very dramatic or dark plot, instead being more comforting slice of life.

anyway, thanks for reading my yapping! god i need to finish these designs before art fight ;; everyone pray for me i got like 20 days to do em after delaying for two months lol

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today i learned: harumasa has asian enby swag and apparently on a potentially related note a bunch of asian enbies like him a lot

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man. this has probably been the worst two months of my life lol

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thinking about mayoi some more tonight. he calls himself unworthy and stained, but he still decided to walk under the light instead of hiding forever underground with probably people he grew up with and knew his whole life (since those tunnels under yumenosaki that were featured in black jack seem to be restricted in some ways, meaning other people lived there or had ties to it). he could have chosen the easy route of giving into the label of ghost that society gave him, of simply never joining the aboveground world... but he chose the harder path.

those voices, those songs, the rhythmic footfalls of feet over his bedroom ceiling... when he was a child ill in bed, teetering between life and death, were the sounds of those on that living shore enough to pull him back? did they save him, call him to stay and not let go, if only to be able to see their ensemble with his own eyes? and as he grew older and began to dance with them, did that wish begin to burn hotter until he wanted to join them? like a star, clawing at his heart, its magnetic orbit tugging him out of the place he knew was safe in order to take a chance, to witness it all not from afar, but up close... to no longer be just the shadow of a star, but a true sun, no matter how dim.

anyway. i have a lot of thoughts on him actually. i can't wait for black jack to hit en in like a year lol