#aiden~

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I know you won't read this, but I'll write it anyways.  I miss you so much it makes my heartache; I hope you are doing alright though. Maybe you are going through something tough,  but remember  it is temporary. Those who don't appreciate you don't deserve you, because there will always be a group of people who adore you. Me included. . . I will always adore and love you whether or not we are in each other's lives.

I wish all the best for you. I hope you get some nice things for Christmas and that you receive some lovely things on your birthday as well. My gift to you will always be wishing for good things and happiness to come your way. You are very deserving when it comes to those things.

Please be happy, ne? You and your boyfriend. ♡

Merry Christmas, dear.

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But it isn't a goodbye~ I will be back. I will love you just as much as I always have. Idk if you will read this, but I will still love you and be here in the future. Right now I just need to focus in on myself, between everything I've lost myself and let myself fall into the cracks.  Live your relationship to the fullest, I want it to work for you guys. I didn't want you to be sorry about it anyways, I just wanted you to respect me enough to be honest with me.  

I will never curse you. If this was back in the beginning I may have, but I'm stronger now and I owe that to you in someways. Ne~ though, please don't tell me goodbye. Because it isn't the end. This is only a ~ I will see you soon. I will always believe in you and I will be back, it's a promise, and no matter how much you wish me to, I truly will never stop loving you. 

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You don't have to love me, you know that right?  I don't expect anything in return for the love I give you. And no matter what I know I say it time and again  I will always truly love you. I will never hold any ill feelings toward you no matter what

I will always want nothing for you except happiness If that is else where and not with me then so be it All I ask for you is that you be honest with me If you are unsure of where your path may lie then that is fine I don't expect you to have answers  Not now anyways, not even I have answers myself Please promise me something?  Once you do you know.  Once you decide if it is someone else.  Then let me know? Please, be honest with me about it.  It will hurt me initially ne? Though I would never and could never hate you for it. My soul is unable to hold onto any form of hate and you would be the last one to ever  receive any of it.  I just ask for honesty; if you've loved me, when that time makes it's way forward. You will be completely honest with me. No matter what sort of fate lies between us.

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You know what~??  I love you . . . I genuinely love you.  You are always on my mind  and more than anything I  want you to be happy and find success in everything you do. 

There is always so much I want  to say to and there is so much that you do that I appreciate. I don't know what else to say except.  I love you~

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Aidddddddden I'm going to worrrrrk ~ I will ttyl xD

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You are such a pabo boy~ and I hate you u-u

 Kamsa for your kind words yesterday I've been thinking them over and its helped

You always have a way of saying things that even if at the time they don't help they end up getting through to me eventually heh You're too sweet and you know how to make me feel appreciated. You're an amazing person; whether or not you believe me is fine because I know so. I'm starting to feel a lot better than I have in the last week and I owe that to you, I think now I just need a good sleep and I will be nearly as good as new

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It’s something I need to talk about for it to stop having a hold over me; all in time I suppose.

No one is talking about relationships rn. Haha you of all people need to stay away from them.  -nods- Just don’t give me that other people bs. I can’t change my feels and saying that stuff will just make me cry tbh.

-gives you cake-