#alexa's yapping

[silly--fangirl]

guys idk those finals might just be the end of me

(they start on the 4th of may and the last one is on the 20th 💀💀 so still like a month of this hell)

[silly--fangirl]

guys so i decided i'll be off of tumblr for the next month or so cause i gotta get my shit together before my exams and start making an effort to actually reach the 100% instead of getting stuck at like an 80smth

so unfortunately i won't be posting, reblogging or liking anything for until may (might get on here like once or twice if i have the time)

i'm actually quite sad

but i'll make a comeback in a bit over a month!!

[silly--fangirl]

• masterlist my works will be also posted on a new account: @sleepless--fangirl

so about me:

HIIII i'm alexa (if you're from 🇵🇱 call me Ola <333)

currently losing my mind about exams called 'matura' and getting into the university i wanna go to

this blog tends to be quite 18+ so mdni

i LOVE books, mostly fantasy, but sometimes i'll read something else

series that live in my head rent free:

got, tog, the deavabad trilogy, soc duology, acotar??????, and much more

my beloved characters:

Nesta Archeron, Darayavahoush e-Afshin, Sansa Stark, Daenerys Targaryen, the whole Martell house, most of the Targaryens tbh, Lucien Vanserra, Eris Vanserra, Gwyneth Berdara, Emerie, Nahri e-Nahid, Jude Duarte, Cardan Greenbriar, Inej Ghafa, Jesper Fahey, Aelin Ashryver Galathynius, Dorian Havilliard, Manon Blackbeak, Elide Lochan, Lorcan Salvaterre, Gavriel, Fang Runin

i also love: sewing, crocheting, painting, drawing, going to the gym, writing, poetry, tbh most forms of art, cooking, baking, EATING THE FOOD I MAKE, doing gel nail extentions (i'm proud of this one), complaining, annoying my friends, summer, autumn but only in theory (as soon as the weather gets cold i loose my will to exist), hot girl walks, taylor swift, just overall listening to music and MANY other things

posts about my personal life or shit posts will be tagged: #alexa's yapping

and any fics will be tagged: #alexa's writing

i sometimes feel like i have one braincell (and share it with my friends)

but hey at least i'm fun right

i don't know what else to put in here so yeah!! but if anyone has read it up to this point, love you, you're amazing!!

[silly--fangirl]

okay i feel like i have to explain myself and my disappearance 😭😭

so as y'all might have known: i took my matura exams this year (in 🇵🇱 they are quite important and the score determines which university i get into and if i get into one at all)

i got the results back 2 days ago and i did quite well, but obviously made some stupid mistakes so i cannot be too sure which uni i'll end up going to - probably not the one that was my first choice (still don't know how i feel about that)

in the meanwhile i also started a summer internship so i am kind of booked and busy rn and i also spent a whole lot of my free time with my friends this past month (we went on quite a few hiking trips and did some other fun things)

and so now i'm waiting to see which uni i'll end up going to and i'm a bit stressed but i think it'll all be alright - but then there's finding a place to live in, getting a job so i can support myself, moving out and all that going away to university entails

i'm sorry for telling you guys a month ago i was coming back and then - not coming back, but i'm seriously all over the place currently

i want to get back to writing fics for y'all soon tho! and i have to admit: i miss writing sm it's not even funny atp, so i might just start writing while i'm at work 😭😭

alright, hope you guys are well and i'll see y'all sooner than later!!

[silly--fangirl]

alright so i'm back for good now guys, already finished up all my exams

(still going crazy about the way those went and whether i have a chance of getting into my dream uni tho)

[silly--fangirl]

i literally can't stop crying and there's still one more exam to go 💀💀

[silly--fangirl]

so i studied so hard for that mfing test

i really did goddamn

and it still went like shit so yeah 😭

and everyone i know is like "it was alright" and i know for a fact i've already lost like 5% and there's still the essay that went completly wrong tbh so yeah

so i just fucked up my life i think

[silly--fangirl]

idk i just feel like i fucked up even though the most important exams are still ahead of me

but yeah i think i gotta just work myself into oblivion lowkey

like literally until all i can do is recite history and literature

alr so i'll be back in a week!! (if i don't fuck my next exams up that is, 'cause if i do i think i'll just move out of my country and decide to have no life whatsoever)