#ali posting

[allium-phyrzz]

not a twink or a bear. but a secret third thing

[allium-phyrzz]

get art dumped

[softness-system]

What keeps you going in life?

A: oooo this is a great question! There is of course Mama, and Bee and my other partners, as well as my friends and also the rest of my system, but another thing that does it is my hope for a better future, We will survive this, we will be happy <3

[softness-system]

ali made a drawing

N: Ali drew her character Mutt that has a bunch of implants going into her cockpit, please be nice as ali is currently little when drawing this.

[softness-system]

Are You Okay?

Its a simple three word question, but depending on the sophont it's answer can be hard to describe. sometimes you have a bad day and the question leads to you crying. other times you just say fine because you don't want to trouble others. fear of being weak or being useless making you think you don't deserve them. you need to be strong so maybe they will like you.

Or maybe you actually are having a good time, and you can smile and share that good time with your friends~ hanging out and sharing their company and enjoying food with each other. enjoying their company too.

Sometimes you worry that you went too far because you cant read the room or the mood so you over correct and ask and make sure never to touch your friends.

i am not sure what has gotten into me tonight but i feel like crying while typing this.

[softness-system]

Loooong dreams

A: Ali here, figured i would talk about the length and depth of my dreams because im curious if i should dig up my old dream journal and share with everyone.

So my dreams are entire lifetimes of new memories and experiences that all feel real, as if im living those lives and becoming those individuals. They all also follow a set of rules.

The dream will never be our world

The dream will not have me as me in it

I will never have the same world twice

I will always be native to the world.

Dying wakes you up

It all feels real and i have much simpler dreams inside the dreams.

With those out of the way, you may ask how do you seperate those dream memories and your real ones? And the answer is its hard, i have to spend atleast 5 minutes in the morning trying to see what slips away and what doenst. I often times wake up crying for those i lose, or craving things that cant exist because it requires magic or an organ that senses magic for it.