This is why I refuse to date or see anyone!
Sigh, another one bites the dust! To go deeper into my tales of woe, here we go. It always involve a girl, but it always ends up in disaster.
Either life events, work, or other things get in the way of things. However, it’s always the needy ones that I tend to be attracted to. Maybe it’s because deep down inside, it’s something I need, but in reality, I hate being around people that are needy as hell. Hate it with the passion of a thousand suns! I prefer people that are emotionally independent and can stand on their own. Not saying I’m distant or anything, but I work all the time and other things tend to take over my life. A lot of it has to do with work - work takes a LOT of my time and I am a workaholic. People don’t seem to understand why I work all the time - Uh, because I have bills and I want to plan for unnecessary things that may happen in my life. It’s happen before, so, I work all the time. I learn from my mistakes and I prepare for what may come. Whether it’s car issues, health issues, etc...I’d rather have the money in my bank account than not have it, you know? Fool me once, shame on you! Fool me twice, can’t put the blame you on, fool me three times, fuck the peace signs! *J-Cole reference, FTW*
I like strong women. A woman I can come home to and know that she will be there for me, just as I will be there for her. I always come home, no matter how tired, upset, etc...I am. Side-chick? Hell, I barely have time for myself, let alone a side-chick.
Maybe I’m not meant to be with anyone. Just hate the drama that relationships come with and prefer to be alone. Maybe I pushed this one away, because of some scary notion that things will get serious or maybe it’s because I don’t have time to deal with another person’s bullshit, as I have a full plate, already.
I swear, I wish I could wipe out everything in my personal life and just work all the time. Work seems to be my fortress of solitude and away from everything - no girlfriend, no friends, no nothing. Just myself and me. Just a break away from everything. Sigh....My career seems to be the only thing that is going well, as it’s the only thing that I’m focused on right now. Which should be my ONLY focus! Everything else is secondary! School and work are my only focus! Women? No. I see myself single for a long time, as my career is WAY too important for me to give up.
Looks like I’m forever single...and I have no problems with it. Been in love before, been hurt before, been cheated on before, etc...so, no more! It’s all career focus!