Yesterday we went to the vet for a new round of blood work. He doesn't like the table. He likes going to the corner with me guarding him around it. So we sit on the floor talking about his pretty coat. I think of just the short weeks he has been sick; a separate world of short time that has made up a stretch of time. I think of when I visited him while he was admitted then to carrying his somewhat lifeless body to his litter box, to his water... There was a point he was laying on the floor limp and I was laying next to him eye level. He became Artax and I was Atreyu, I could see him sinking in the swamp, I cried to him to come through. “You have to try, you have to care... for me?... Holdennnn!” But then in my vision he did not sink; in my vision Freyja's golden chariot came down and swooped him out of the mud. He requires IV fluids nightly, antibiotics, and force feedings. I will have to give him IV fluids for the rest of his life. I know so many have been where I am and although we have felt sadness in these moments I feel thankful for the holy gift the gods have bestowed upon us humans. The gift of sustaining life in quality and dignity. Yes it will be a lot of work but to sustain such a holy gift leaves me taken aback. All of the medicine; plant medicine, snake medicine, and even the kind that has become corrupt, please know that this medicine in it's purity is holy; snake tooth medicine. The medicine of the humans. The knowledge of anatomy and the magick science behind the blood and how to read it's language. To continue life. He is only 12 but can live a full life because humans can make it so. Not just make it so but make it quality. Like nothing happened. I do believe the majority of humans are radiant beings. There are facets of this even in the darkest of souls. It is our fate and we will find it..... I had a dream about Holden as the Chestshire cat and he made parts of himself disappear and reappear. He told me he feels more magick than he ever has because the humans can give him the gift of the gods; Life. • • #FelineKidneyDisease #Holden #BlackCat #CatLover #Polydactyl #PolydactylCat #AllTheCats #cats #MyBabyWillPrevail 😻😻😻
