A Long Way Gone (Natasha Somji)
It has been years since the last episode. Every day, I add one more tally, expanding the distance between your anger and my recovery. In the beginning, my feet dragged through the broken pieces of my soul that you had carelessly left strewn around the room, my body too bruised to stand itself upright. Now, I walk with a steady rhythm, gaining pace everyday. I have stooped down to pick up the pieces and sewn them gently back together. They will never be whole again in the same way, but perhaps the stitching makes them that much stronger.
And you are still by my side, a haunting reminder of the past that we have both tried so hard to leave behind. In the Beginning, you would sit by the window with your back turned toward me, too ashamed to look at me, too angry at yourself for the bruises you had inflicted. While I lay crumpled on the floor, unable to stand or even murmur a sound, imploring you with a gaze that you wouldn’t meet. It was only after my will to survive had gotten me through the Beginning, that you met me in the Middle. You gave me your hand as a crutch, a way to forgive yourself for the pain. And I held onto you, the only one who really understood at all. Sometimes there are no easy answers, no way to simplify our complex intertwined lives.
One day, we will get to the End, and cross the finish line hand in hand.