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[amanda4love]

...and just for fun...

[phantomcodes]

Hi Sage, thank you for your themes! I bought Kyoshi on Dec 29, and followed setup and troubleshooting instructions, but somehow my blog no longer opens up? (As in, there is no link to open my blog from the dashboard, and typing my URL just defaults to the dashboard version.) As far as I'm aware, I'm not getting a Javascript error, and I didn't touch the code. Did I overlook something?

hey! i think tumblr changed this a little while ago, go into "edit appearance" on the dash and make sure this is toggled on

[amanda4love]

trust me the hard part is

You waited for me when I was at my lowest.

Truthfully, I'm not sure my moral standards are allowing me to forget the memory.

You read until the end.

Loving you is reminding me of Marissa showing up to the hospital when I had my first panic attack. Kind and quiet.

[amanda4love]

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[amanda4love]

Always...and Forever...but then there's you.

It's 10:37pm, June nineteenth of the year twenty-twenty-one.

Holy cow, it's been a long time since I've written anything!

How do you allow yourself to be truly happy? If you're a person who feels everything so deeply, how do you know when you've found what you've been looking for? Why wasn't it 'that person' you thought you wanted to spend forever with? And why do you even care about them still?

Allow yourself to be happy. Allow yourself to be secure and safe. Let the ocean help you float. You won't drown...because you fight for your life and for everything to be fine in the end.

Context: I've just finished watching To All the Boys: Always and Forever. Directed by Michael Fimognari, 2021. Netflix app.

I wrote quite a bit more here, but my laptop died part way through and now I'm too lazy to try to remember what I originally wrote lol.

P.S. The 'Eyes Full of Stars' candle from Taylor Swift smells am-aaaa-zing!

[amanda4love]

It's my 16 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[amanda4love]

It's 11:20pm, August 18, of the year twenty-twenty-five.

Rolling over in bed thinking about how you're not here has me in a pissy mood.

I feel like I've been walking around lately with a slight furrow in my forehead because of the intensity of how badly I miss you.

[amanda4love]

Good morning! It's 10:57am, January 30th of the year twenty-twenty-four.

Well, not much is new these days... Wait, what am I saying?!

Actually, I finally had my ears pierced, earlier this month to mark a milestone birthday. I quite love the studs that are in my ears right now, (synthetic) black opal. They flash green-ish. It's a vibe.

And I have a few pairs of earrings I've either bought for myself or had gifted to me by my mom and grandma, that I am also super excited to wear once my piercing holes are fully healed!

That, and I got my first tattoo a little over a week ago! I am beyond happy with it. I drew out the design two different times, with the second design being the one I was the most satisfied with. My tattoo artist managed to follow my design nearly exactly, so I'm hyped that I essentially have my own art on my body. Closest thing I could get to actually tattooing it on myself, haha. (Maybe one day, we'll see...)

Picture/video updates are going on my public/professional Artist's Instagram. Yeah, I guess I'm being a tease.

P. S.: Virtual cuddles + kisses for my one and only. I'm trying to cherish the dwindling number of days that you can be in one place.

P. P. S.: I did this guided meditation earlier (as soon as I woke up), that really helped me to clarify why I regret and hate myself for feeling regret. Jay Shetty, you da real MVP today. Apparently I am human, though. I love deeply, some people will feel the same way back and be obvious about that, and I also value loyalty so some relationships stay as friendships for good reason. Some relationships of my past, if they went beyond friendship, fizzled out if they were problematic to begin with but some also ended because I intentionally stopped putting in the effort. I've made mistakes but the important thing is that I continue to find ways to learn from them.

P. P. P. S.: Someone who devotes attention and effort to their relationship with you, even after you've completely fucked up, is the kind of person you want in your life forever.

P. P. P. P. S.: This one is an angry rant of a post-script. Fucking just stop. Being photographed with someone problematic doesn't automatically make another person a problematic person. The problematic person needs to take accountability, it has nothing to do with the other person just standing there and enjoying something else. I'm saying this because I saw someone I used to follow "Like" a reblog, with screenshots of an article that included pics of Taylor standing next to one of the Mahomes brothers - the original blogger's message was incredibly critical and basically demanding that Taylor needs to make a statement regarding some made-up connection to said brother, who is accused of something socially and morally unacceptable. Like, excuse me, since when is it Taylor's responsibility for some guy's reprehensible actions? She is seen in a picture with him, it doesn't mean she knows everything about him or even talked to him. Fucking stop preying on her privacy. You're the reason she feels like her life is inspected and critiqued under a microscope. Stop expecting her to be perfect and on top of all the bullshit news that you are making up about her. (I am fuming and I hate ending my blog post on this sentiment, but don't worry about it - I'll be fine eventually.)