Cat lady coder
Adulting crisis! As my twenties have all but whizzed by me, I am at a point in my life where I am having, what I call, an “adulting” crisis. I never really felt grown up or responsible in my twenties. I was waiting to wake up and feel like an adult one day. It never came. I have a professional job, bills, a place I rent, an IRA/401k, a failed marriage, and most things adults have. I have house plants and cats I take care of successfully. Yet I still feel like I did when I was 18 embarking on the adventure of college. I’m still waiting to feel like an adult.
As I contemplate taking on more responsibility, maybe buying a random dude’s sperm and letting science impregnate me, I think about how hectic it would be to juggle everything as it is now, alone. Balancing motherhood with a not very flexible schedule, too much adult babysitting (management), and the utter lack of passion I have for my jobs, hashtag workaholic. I have always been a coding hobbyist. I love it. Therefore, I have never wanted to do it as a profession in fear of sabotaging the utter awe and wonderment I still have for it, for all technology. Maybe I have romanticized it too much, reading things like Steven Levy’s Hackers: Heroes of the Computer Revolution too many times. Maybe, I don’t want to be a female in the industry that is still so unwelcoming of my sex. Maybe, I am trying to talk myself out of it as I write this blog post only my twin will read. But maybe I should.
I am trying to teach myself full stack development on my own. I have found a few free programs, and I will try them and write about them. I am doing this to help keep myself accountable, but also to write some witty (or not so witty) rantings that maybe one day I can cash in on.
I am starting off with Free Code Camp. Let’s see how this goes.