#amimakingsense?

[alitay910]

Lonely

I feel so lonely. Or perhaps detached is a better word?

Now that my only “rock” is gone, I have nothing and no one keeping me grounded. My chest aches and my mind feels sad, but I can’t cry because on some level, nothing feels real???

That’s the best way I can describe it. Nothing feels real. I’m not neurotypical but I also don’t think I have a personality disorder. So I can’t use the word “dissociate”. This isn’t depression. I know what that looks and feels like. What the hell am I supposed to call this then?

I need a word for it. So at least if nothing else feels real, the word for this experience is real. Solid. Tangible. My new “rock”.

[danielaxsmm-blog]

Z

People come and go. The elderly members of the family come and go. Some of them you were able to spend a little time with and some you were not able to meet. Friends come and go. Some of your friends were only your friends during your childhood days, your college days, or your working days and that they did not last forever. Boyfriends/Girlfriends come and go. Some you said you would spend the rest of your life with but things did not end like you wished. Everyone is just temporary. Your life is temporary. The only thing that you could keep forever are the memories you've spent with the people that came into your life but decided to go away. The happy memories that you could keep on looking back. However, looking back is not wishing about the "what ifs" in life but looking back is a way to see what you are today. Today, and everyday, is a day you should be thankful for. A day of getting to know new people and a day of facing the ups and downs in life. Life is temporary so make out the most out of it. Make everyday a day to look back to. 

[keepxcalmxluvxyou]

I like it when things are unexpected. Catches you off guard and then your like, oh okay :)

[altercatio]

Stop caring about what people think. Stop pretending to yourself that you don't care - because you do, always. Don't pretend like you don't wonder what people are thinking about you after you said that one thing, or you did that one thing after you got ridiculously drunk, or what people are saying about the new shoes you're wearing. 

Because you want to know something? People are so engrossed by their own mind and what other people are thinking about them, I can promise you that they will rarely have time to give a fuck about you, or what you did. They probably don't care; infact, they definitely don't care. So do what you want, say what you want, fucking think what  you want - because too many people forget that this one life is it. There are no second chances. There are no encores. All you have is yourself, and this one life. So why are you sitting in your room crying about what that person said to you? Say "fuck you" to that person and really learn what it is to live, because trust me, you'll come to your deathbed and the only thing going through your mind will be "why did I spend so much time caring and so little time living?".