When Blasi’s eyes shot open, he would have screamed if not for the fact he had forgotten how to breathe. He sat up in bed, hand at his throat as he choked and coughed, trying desperately to catch a breath in the midst of his panic. Tears stung at the corners of his eyes and by the time he was finally able to take in a breath, his vision was blurry and parts of his face and body had started to tingle. Blasi fought hard against hyperventilating as he took in several fast, deep breath. His chest hurt, and his head was starting to feel light.
He coughed a bit and ever so slowly his labored breathing died down He was able to just take a moment to pause, waiting for the blood in his body to rush back to the parts of him that were numb and tingling. His fists clenched tightly at his chest, feeling his heart pounding in his rib cage.
It was the same nightmare again, or rather it was the memory of that night, just played in a different filter. Even though he was awake now, he could still feel the hands on his body, pinning him, hurting him. The urge to fight back and struggle was still flowing in his veins even though there was no one here that could hurt him. It all made his stomach churn in disgust, in pain, and he wanted to cry. Why couldn’t he just forget? Why did his mind constantly remind him of that terrifying night?
Blasi brushed the sweat from his forehead and gave a shaky sigh, he was grateful that he hadn’t screamed when he woke up. What would the others on the team think if they came in after hearing such a thing, and saw him in this state?
He couldn’t let them know the truth, he couldn’t let them see him like this. They would probably ask questions -- questions that he didn’t want to answer.
Blasi stared blankly against the wall. He had managed to calm himself physically, but his mind was still racing. He knew he would not be able to get anymore sleep, and quite frankly, he was too afraid to go back to sleep. Even if he could, he didn’t want to. He was too afraid of the nightmares coming back again.
With another sigh, he got out of his bed and quietly slipped out of his room. He made his way downstairs and outside, where he could get some fresh air and not feel so confined. He stared up at the vivid night sky, leaning against a pillar.
He took in a deep breath, and allowed his mind to drift off.
1. HAD SEX
2. BOUGHT CONDOMS
3. GOTTEN PREGNANT
4. FAILED A CLASS
5. KISSED A BOY
6. KISSED A GIRL
7. USED A LITTLE PAPER BAG FOR LUNCH
8. HAD A JOB
9. MISSED THE SCHOOL BUS TRAIN
11. LEFT THE HOUSE WITHOUT THEIR WALLET/PURSE
12. BULLIED SOMEONE ON THE INTERNET
13. SEXTED
14. HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
15. PLAYED ON A SPORTS TEAM (Raimon, Inazuma Japan, Inazuma Legend Japan)
16. SMOKED WEED
17. SMOKED CIGARETTES
18. SMOKED A CIGAR
19. DRANK ALCOHOL
20. WATCHED “THE BREAKFAST CLUB”
21. BEEN OVERWEIGHT
22. BEEN UNDERWEIGHT
23. HAD AN EATING DISORDER
24. BEEN TO A WEDDING
25. MADE FUN OF SOMEONE FOR BEING FAT
26. BEEN ON THE COMPUTER FOR 5 HOURS STRAIGHT
27. WATCHED TV FOR 5 HOURS STRAIGHT
28. BEEN LATE FOR WORK
29. BEEN LATE FOR SCHOOL
30. KISSED SOMEONE IN THE RAIN
31. SHOWERED WITH SOMEONE ELSE
32. FAILED THEIR DRIVERS TEST
33. RAN A MILE IN LESS THAN 10 MINUTES
34. BEEN OUTSIDE THEIR HOME COUNTRY (FF International)
35. BEEN ON A ROAD TRIP LONGER THAN 5 HOURS
36. GOTTEN THEIR HEART BROKEN (Oh Leonardo)
37. HAD A CREDIT CARD
38. BEEN TO A PROFESSIONAL SPORTS GAME (As a participant)
39. BROKEN A BONE
40. BEEN UNHAPPY ABOUT THEIR WEIGHT
41. WON A TROPHY (FF:I)
42. CUT THEMSELVES (Kitchen accident)
43. HAD AN STD
44. GOT ENGAGED
45. BEEN ON A DIET
46. TRIED OUT TO BE ON A TV SHOW
47. RODE IN A TAXI
48. BEEN TO PROM
49. PLAYED IN A DRINKING GAME
50. STAYED UP FOR 24 HOURS OR MORE
51. BEEN TO A CONCERT
52. HAD A THREESOME
53. HAD A CRUSH ON SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX
54. BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT
55. HAD BRACES
56. LEARNED ANOTHER LANGUAGE (English)
57. KILLED A BUG
58. BEEN AT A YARD SALE
59. BEEN TO A JAPANESE STEAKHOUSE
60. WORE MAKE UP
61. TALKED TO SOMEONE VIA WEBCAM
62. LOST THEIR VIRGINITY BEFORE THEY WERE 16
63. HAD THEIR WISDOM TEETH TAKEN OUT
64. KISSED SOMEONE OF A DIFFERENT RACE THAN THEMSELVES
65. SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE
66. BOUGHT PORN
67. HAD A VIRUS ON THEIR COMPUTER
68. HAD ORAL SEX
69. DYED THEIR HAIR
70. CHEATED ON A PARTNER
71. GRADUATED FROM COLLEGE
72. WORE SOMEONE ELSE’S CLOTHES
73. VOTED IN AN ELECTION
74. RODE IN AN AMBULANCE
75. RODE IN A HELICOPTER
76. CAUGHT THE STOVE ON FIRE
77. GOTTEN INTO A FIGHT
78. BEEN ON VACATION
79. BEEN IN AN AIRPLANE
80. BEEN ON A BOAT
81. HAD A SURGERY
82. BEAT A VIDEO GAME
83. FOUND SOMETHING VALUABLE ON THE GROUND
84. MADE A SURVEY
85. STALKED SOMEONE ON FACEBOOK/MYSPACE
86. PRANK CALLED SOMEONE
87. BEEN TO A LIBRARY
88. SPENT OVER $100 SHOPPING IN ONE DAY
89. CUT THEIR HAIR AND HATED IT
90. PEED OUTSIDE
91. WENT FISHING
92. HELPED WITH CHARITY
93. TAKEN A PREGNANCY TEST
95. BEEN REJECTED BY A CRUSH
96. BEEN SUSPENDED FROM SCHOOL
97. BROKEN A MIRROR
98. FAKED SICK FROM SCHOOL WORK
99. OWNED A PET
100. BEEN TO SIX FLAGS
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//this one’s a bit complicated but basically, I actually followed because I saw that they had rped Young Cricket, and I liked the guy. Also the dynamic between Momo and Cricket would’ve been interesting. The molang icons gave off the impression of someone sweet...but then I quickly learned that they came off as a bit stoic at times.
//but in reality as I learned even more later was that they’re kind, but stern. Very helpful. But I hope they can get some more love too. Granted, amuse is a nice pal too.
Kazemaru smiled as he cooked all of Endou’s favorite foods and made sure everything was clean and smelled nice. Why? Endou was coming back tonight and he missed his bf after the three long days Raimon had been on tour. Nothing to do but wait one more hour for the love of his life to return home and hopefully have the energy for some play.
30. What is their preferred level of activity and stimulation? How do they cope if they get either too little or too much?
Blasi prefers to be constantly active if possible, which usually isn’t hard to achieve. In his day to day life he is usually around constant stimulation and activity, after all he lives in a home with about 50-60 other children ranging in age from infants to eighteen year olds. If he isn’t helping with chores, he’s usually helping with taking care of the little ones.
Sometimes this does get overwhelming, whenever he gets overwhelmed from activity, he will go off on his own to take a breather and get some peace and quiet. Sometimes he will take a nap depending on the time of day.
Its rare that he get’s too little activity but sometimes on Liocott during downtime he would find things just a little too peaceful and quiet. To keep himself from getting anxious or stressed from overthinking about stuff (which he usually does when its too quiet), he'd usually leave the lodge to work out or practice on his own.
