#an outsider

[alicentsgf]

being confused why any of the adult yellowjackets have some level of care for each other that they seemingly didnt in the wilderness (e.g. shauna being shocked and sad that travis is dead) seems strange to me. because yes whilst they're in the wilderness ofc they can be each others adversaries. but as soon as they get home that cant be true anymore. as much as some of them dont want to admit it, they all participated in the terrible things they did to some extent and because of that they are bound together. we know from Tai they all discussed it and agreed to never talk about what happened. they have a kinship in it, even if they hate it, even if they hate each other, this all goes so incredibly far beyond liking each other as people. they've experienced 25 years of protecting each other by this point and honestly how could you not feel bonded to the only people in the world who know your deepest darkest secrets, who saw you at your worst, saw you do things the entire rest of the world would shun you for. when one of them dies, a part of the others dies too because its them against the world, whether they like it or not.

[lieeleee]

I don’t think Travis is ace because he pulled the ace card twice, but it is pretty funny. Assigned ace by wilderness

[sunny-aside]

I know I needed a day of rest and just like, not doing anything today except catching up on chores and dicking around and feeling like I had some time to breathe but my toxic trait is that I did have to make it a productive day anyway and now I'm here like, come on, damn, it's Saturday night, I should be out partying. I turned down a day trip to the beach and a pierogi party because I felt burnt out and dead inside but then THE SECOND I start to feel a little better I'm like ooo omg oh man what if we were at a party and there were bubble machines or okay, stay with me here, it's Saturday NIGHT, right? Like either we should be having a party or we should be fucking.

[redrunningmoogles]

i can't believe i never realized that US American Folk music heavily permeates the pop music that's popular today. Like just because US Americans don't have say, Rancheras or straight-up anything that they refer to as a folkloric genre of modern music, doesn't mean it's not there.

I tried listening to Chapell Roan and while I like her as a visual artist and performer and person, her music doesn't have what I look for (which is harmonic and melodic complexity and an interesting blend of timbres but that's beside the point). However, if you had blindfolded me and played her music, I would say "Wow this is sooo American Folk, clearly this artist derives from the classics of American Folk music." but I don't think her fans would hear it like that. I had a similar experience listening to Alanis Morrissette and even Avril Lavigne. AvrilLavignes's "Complicated" sounds so country I don't understand why I have never heard anyone point that out before. Yet both alanis Morissette and Avril Lavigne are recognized as explicitly rock stars.

I don't have a particular thesis here, maybe it's that rock being such a global music genre means that even American Folk music inevitably tendrils into other countries' popular music spheres (though I'm a fan of 60's mexican rock and 90s Mexican ska rock so maybe I shouldn't even complain). But I'm more struck by the absence of like, recognition. Do fans of Chapell Roan not hear her as a descendant American Folk? at all? Like that would be like someone hearing Peso Pluma and thinking he isn't either. Brazilian Phonk is gaining popularity as well and don't we all hear that as like. explicitly Brazilian. But do people hear American musicality someone like Alanis Morissette or sometimes Avril Lavigne or Chapell Roan?

The other thing I wanted to point out (that I can't believe i never noticed) is that the composition of these musicians IS explicitly American in maybe the same way a modern take on Mariachi or Bachatas or Cumbias or Reggaeton is. Those genres gain popularity because of their cultural relevance as dance music (and then you know, cumbia especially, became more popular and commercialized and became more compositionally simple). US American culture has less of this trend. Lots of American Folk music is heavily harmony and chord-progression based. It makes sense when you consider the primarily religious function of music from colonization and onwards. I always found it curious that most American Folk musicians were soloists, just them and the guitar, nothing like drum + charango + violin or something. YES I am aware of the bluegrass and old time bands, but those genres did not reach popularity as American Folk music in the same way like um. Joni Mitchell did. Yes I'm aware that Black Jazz bands and Black Church choirs constitute American Folk music, but historically those genres have been separate in such a way that they produced distinct musical descendants (and also the reason for which white rappers and jazz and RnB musicians either weren't a thing or just made music that was audibly different from the original).

Anyway what I'm saying here is that isn't it fucking crazy that like. Someone like Chapell Roan sounds like an American Folk musican, because she is, her music is composed and sung that way. But it's bizarrely not seen as an American cultural thing, its just "global" now. But she's so clearly a product of American Folk music! Like I can't imagine anyone doing that with like, Peso Pluma or like even Bad Bunny. Even Americans themselves dont see her as a continuation of their Folk music (at least i dont think so? idk i dont listen to that much American Folk music at all ever, so Im mostly basing this on online comments about her and how she is talked about in the news). Like it drives me a little crazy that white US americans DO have, in a way, folkloric cultural knowledge/tradition but like. dont see it that way.

Im not even going to touch on the global nature on rock music because tbh thats kind of a different can of worms since rock music is like. black (and west/north African) at its core.

(anyway send asks about any genre of music anywhere in the world i will probably know something about it)

[devouredead]

As an autistic person, I absolutely believe my autism (as well as the rest of my disabilities and personhood) is bestowed on me as a multi-faceted aspect from an eldritch being. It has its raw beautiful moments where I view it as blessing, divine awareness, near-omniscient, painful love and its moments where it condemns me to anger or fear and knee jerk reaction to literally bite and binds me so my speech is so limited and yet my words that are clawing inside me are so many and that I hear but can't, just will not understand and I absolutely believe it's a curse. And it can be both. My experience of life is that it is both. My point is... You're free to identify your identities however you like. Nobody, least of all other autistics, should be telling you how to feel about or identify your autism. It doesn't matter if it's religious or science fiction or a metaphor that they think is tired or overused or too basic. Make up your own mind. It's okay. It might make other people uncomfortable. That's okay. In the end, in the heart of all hearts... it's not their business. (of course, you can't speak for other people/ and this does not extend to 'autism mommies'; your child's dx is not your own, your autistic child is not your identity to claim. same with siblings, etc)

[cupidlakes]

dude i want what skephalo have

[sbsrandomshitblog]

Y’know, it occurs to me, that I am an outsider.

I don’t mean this in a bad way. It’s just a very true statement.

See, I don’t join groups very well. I’m very... self absorbed I guess? No, that sounds wrong. Self sufficient is incorrect as well...

I don’t reach out and join groups because I’m very much someone who likes their own company well enough that they don’t need others company.

But this means I’m often an outsider, even when I’m hanging around a group I feel quite comfortable with.

Everyone else already knows each other (perhaps even gets together for regular game nights or the like!) and I’m just kinda there.

I should clarify, once again, that I don’t mind. This doesn’t bother me, and I even am kind of amused by it.

Heck, I think it at least partially helps me avoid all the constant drama that some social circles seem to cycle through on a constant basis.

I’m very used to being by myself (and even far prefer it to being around people overmuch), but it’s odd.

It’s so very strange to realize that there’s these entire communities of folks that you kinda know, who are all much closer than you have ever been. That communicate in ways you haven’t connected with.

And I guess that’s about what I have to say about it. I don’t really know where I’m going with this beyond that I’ve had another one of those moments where I can see people I certainly consider as friends, who are talking about something that’s happened to a group of them, and I’m just over here kinda staring into space with a look of confusion.