#and reeling

[sirigreenhaven]

So I just finished reading the Black Stallion series for the first time, since the movies were childhood favorites....

Walter Farley really said "the main character and his horse in these kid books about horse racing is gonna survive one sinking ship, two airplane crashes, and the literal apocalypse. Also there were aliens this one time."

[supernaturalisahorrorshow]

okokok here you go, lesbian win(wee?sam is 15)cest  teaser. This currently has no name and lots of warnings, for like, the usual fuckery. 

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Your mother is crucified on the ceiling in a white dress. She bleeds into your baby sister’s mouth like communion and you don’t remember anything but the smell of charred flesh and curtains, the roar of flame, the bleat of sirens. You didn’t know it then, but that was the moment you stopped being your mother’s daughter, and became your father’s son. The moment your future of party dresses and sweet sixteens and lipgloss and sleepovers was cut short, fast and hard, a cauterized wound. 

It’s fine. You would never never been very good at being one of those girls, anyway. It would have been an ill fitting mask, you think, so you don’t feel any great yawning loss in your heart when your father buys your clothes from Army Surplus and the boys section of goodwill, when he shaves your hair down into a crew cut because its pointless to have anything longer when fly-away strands could get caught in the chamber and bolt of a rifle and fuck up your shot. 

Your father fashions you into a girl-version of him, such a flawless replica you’re not sure you’re even the girl-version anymore. Maybe just the younger version, the sloppier version. You drink the same brand of whiskey he likes, when he lets you have whiskey. You talk like him, you listen to the same five bands he does, you wear his leather jacket like armor, and you don't miss the Deana who could have been, natural highlights and the sort of lips that make boys forget their names. Instead you cut the A off and go by Dean, and you do everything in your power to downplay and silence the parts of you a man might notice. Under your oversized white V necks you double up on sports bras that compress your chest, and even when you turn pretty girls out in church basements, you don’t let them touch you under your shirt. You do the touching, you tilt them back, you bunch their cheerleader skirts around their narrow hips, mind a mess of lotion and perfume until you find the one place on them that’s dirty, and put your tongue there. Just like your dad does, when he leaves you and Sam alone in a motel and comes stumbling back with a whore, only to book a room down the hall like the walls aren’t thin and his daughters-turned-sons won’t hear him. 

Sammy though—she resists it. The transformation into a son. As soon as she hits puberty she digs her heels in and wails for the right to wear pink, to have soft things, to chew bubblegum, to watch Sabrina the Teenage Witch.

[gurguliare]

I’m trying to get early han emperors straight and I think tolkien could really have benefited from studying more imp chinese history because it offers such rich examples of generational back-and-forth, as far as coveting eternal life goes. “Also, after a short foray into magic in 61 BC, Emperor Xuan realized the follies of seeking immortality, and abandoned the would-be costly venture (unlike, for example, his great-grandfather Emperor Wu).” GREAT JOB EMPEROR XUAN, YOU DID OK and probably only drank like one liter of lead

[neonprotagonist]

my aunt barbara died this morning. nine months after my uncle forrest died. nine months after my grandpa died.

[star-sonder]

wth???

okay but i’m highkey shook?? because ? one of my posts got over a hundred notes?????? which was the one about that link to love simon!! a couple hours after i had posted it, it had gotten into the double digits and i went “holy shit bro” and one night after it suddenly has over 100???? i never imagined it would even get past 10 notes lmfaoo