the fact that Andy's Critical Role favorite character is Mollymauk- the sweet amnesiac alter-ego of Lucien, a cult leader who got his entire friend group killed in a desolate wasteland by following voices that only he could hear and turning his back on everything outside his mental illness- is so fucking ironic to me. He stans the cult leader's alter ego, but he's just the manipulative, obsessive cult leader.
Oh, wow. I wasn't aware of Lucien before; thanks, Anon! That's creepy as fuck, especially given that several times, Andy has claimed that all his previous bad acts were committed by "Others" and that he's a completely different person.
For example, he blamed everything that happened with Bit of Earth on the Jordan Wood persona (the "duplicate soul" of Elijah Wood), and then "became" Andy (the "duplicate soul" of Orlando Bloom), who continued to run an abusive cult for several years. After Abbey left him, he kept the name Andy, but took on yet another persona, allegedly believing he was an Irish-American who'd fought on both sides of the Troubles and had a heart condition that would soon kill him. That persona was responsible for the DAYD cult and many of Andy's Tumblr shenanigans. A couple years into his time on Tumblr, he claimed to have realized that all of his memories were false and rediscovered his true identity, which was thereby absolved of blame for anything save (maybe) what he'd done during his earliest days in fandom.
Basically, at the same time that he claims to accept responsibility for his past, Andy wants everyone to see him as the sweet alter ego who did nothing wrong.
Also, the whole "desolate wasteland" thing makes me think of his and Abbey's attempt to walk across the Canadian border, and now I'm sad and creeped out.