Cit. Me coming back home today with two mangas, a new bookshop card, a new book related to Hannibal Barca like it was the first time and a lot of coins to spend when reading Osora on webtoon. And compliments from people everytime I had a book in my hand lmao
(because 'it's rare to see youngsters read nowadays' bruh thanks but wtf, I'm like 22???? And ever heard of ao3, boomer?💀 /j cause obv gen X and boomers here can't know about AO3 and similar websites)
Me at 11 (this really happened)
X (11 years old too): What's your ideal man? *shows a model's photo*
Me: *shows #17's pic (I still have it somewhere)*
X: *looks for some moments* *gets shocked* But he's not real!
Me: eh unfortunately
Me if she asked me now:
X: What's your ideal man?
Me: Hannibal Barca would be great for a lavander marriage 🟠🟡⚪️💠🔵
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About her
She was toxic, she hurt me a lot in years and never minded her own business so I'd try to shush her with an unexpected answer.
+ I am transmasc and aroacespec, I rarely fall in love / am attracted to someone else. Talking about men, I am generally in love at most with some fictional men. I don't exclude it totally buuuut it seems I'm not really meant to marry a irl man lol
About Hannibal Barca
Since I have many books and sources I'm studying on, I deduced that he was probably aroace (in any case I like to think so) and (in any case) he would have been too focused on Rome to care about me, so I could have done whatever I wanted.