You will always be the one who tamed Sebastian Smythe. Do you think he’s changed you?
Oh brother! You really are living in a fantasyland if you think I tamed Sebastian Smythe. I don't like that expression at all. What I will tell you, is that Sebastian has had some really, really special people in his life. And maybe I am lucky enough to be one of them.
Sebastian absolutely changed me. He opened me up to many things I wanted to ignore. He taught me a little bit about survival in contrast to the survival military training I'd grown up with. I watched him take responsibility for his actions, turn over a new leaf, and learn humility. Maybe that's why he found me on his doorstep when I felt like I literally had no one else to turn to. And possibly without meaning to, he taught me about love.
Sebastian introduced me to family. Not necessarily the one you're born into but the one you choose and make for yourself. His mother, and his grandfather especially, welcomed me with such warmth as I tagged along in various roles over the last few years. Because of Sebastian I have friends. Actual friends. Even though most are his friends first, they put up with me. Like Karen and Rob who even let me sleep on their couch when I've really fucked up. I also befriended Rob's grandfather too. There is also Nick and Jeff, who keep encouraging me with that 'once a warbler' line. Quinn and Catie who really are the Belle's to my Beast. And of course Blue Jay. I don't even have the words to describe him. But I have no idea how our paths could have ever crossed without Sebastian and that is terrifying.
