Nov 7, 2018
rambly rant time but i honestly miss who i was as a kid so much? i used to get really into things and discover new passions all the time, i had so much more dedication and just ... joy? i like doing lots of things now but in what capacity? i feel like i gain interest in something way too fast, i see something cool, wanna try it, spend money on something, and it preocupies me for a day a week a month and then? poof, the joy is gone .. and im stuck back on my laptop watching vine compilations wondering why i have 0 hobbies and constantly feel unfulfilled
#askdjnfsak WOW#anyways ... uh#ignore that#i just???#i saw something cool in a video and thought 'wow im gonna try that'#and then i reminded myself that i drop everything#askdfjna it sucks like this???#translated into school and my career goals as well#i wanna try everything and in fact think i could be good at a LOT of things#but its like the passion isnt ... consistent?#like im Desperate to be finally good at the One Thing im 'born to do'#but in reality all im good at is being good at ... lots of things?#idek if this makes sense anyw#ays#ignore me#long post#abbey blabs