THE GLITZ AND THE GLAMOUR, the gentle hum of the music that had been drowned out by the 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑓𝑙𝑜𝑤 of your own thoughts. sometimes you wondered if this was it, the end of the adventure of life, a girl desperate for love finally found, like prayers for aphrodite scattered like ashes across the dance floor, love letters meant for 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢, and for once not signed from yourself to an unknown recipient. his hand is outstretched to you now, your thoughts no longer a mess in your own mind but tidy. the edges of your lips were free to stretch into a smile. (𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚗𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚍𝚒𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎, where names fall deaf upon ears of those who simply wished to enjoy the golden decor and for once: live the life so far away from the cold, cobblestoned streets)
and you take his hand. like a girl signing herself away to the devil, AN UNSPOKEN PROMISE. a gentle hum of appreciation from the back of your throat, hand resting itself on his shoulder. ❛ ❛ and here i was thinking that you had forgotten to ask me to dance. ❜ ❜ your tone is teasing, head tilted only slightly to the side. there had never been so much love held in your eyes, THE GIRL THAT FELL IN LOVE with any who even gave you a shred of attention. (𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚖𝚒𝚛𝚛𝚘𝚛𝚜 𝚠𝚎 𝚊𝚛𝚎, 𝚜𝚎𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚊𝚌𝚎 𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚑 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛, 𝚛𝚎𝚏𝚕𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎) . your body moulds into his as his yours, as if you were both made out of something holy coming home. ❛ ❛ i thought i would have to find someone else ❜ ❜
go. that’s all you heard after the shots and screams. found yourself behind cloth covered table. silence your heart, lock and throw away the key. they can ALWAYS hear it hammering like 𝚊 𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚋𝚒𝚛𝚍 inside your chest. your mind races, and so you silence that too, with sparkling eyes dulled so that they couldn't see them in the dark. 𝐬𝐮𝐟𝐟𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐬, flowers decayed a long time ago in your ribcage held those empty promises and dreams tight in your chest: the ivy grew and grew, twisting itself around until suffocation was the only option. they will hear you, they will see you. (𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚞𝚜, 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚔𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚞𝚜) men with nothing but coal in their hearts have nothing to lose but themselves.) the air was still, it hung heavy and warned you of what to come next. but you did not wish to see it. the doomsday neighbours next to you already making their peace, voices moaning to find 𝑎 𝑠𝘩𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑎𝑙𝑣𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛.
he was not far from you. you could make it, you were sure of it. shoes were already abandoned on floor. he wouldn’t stand alone and NEITHER WOULD YOU. stood between shots, strides taken as eyes desperately flickered in the panicked crowd to find him once again. ❛ ❛ michael ! ❜ ❜ words were spoken in time with bullet, and in that moment, you already knew how this would end as your own body slips to the floor before him, hands gripped to 𝚕𝚊𝚙𝚎𝚕𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚜𝚞𝚒𝚝 in hopes to drag him down with you (away from everything..) but bullet still found home nestled between your 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬.
what was it in our stars that destined us for this sorrow? the pain engulfed every feeling in your body. (𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚞𝚗): and suddenly it was you looking to repent. you did not spare others so why should you be? 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚒𝚛𝚕 𝚖𝚊𝚍𝚎 𝚊 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚕 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚕 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚒𝚐𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚠𝚊𝚢 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎. you were obsessed with a story called love, how it touches you and sometimes it alchemises you into a shadow of gold but it was crimson red that was flowing from you, the 𝑔𝑜𝑙𝑑𝑒𝑛 𝑠𝑢𝑛𝑙𝑖𝑔𝘩𝑡 nothing but hope dying on lips.
❛ ❛ michael ❜ ❜ your voice echoes mere moments before but it’s heavier now. and you kiss him, hold on for as long as your body 𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚘𝚘, as if you knew you did not have that long to go. bloodied hand found his, and you squeeze. ❛ ❛ .. I AM SORRY FOR RUINING YOUR SUIT. ❜ ❜
❛ ❛ DANCE + SACRIFICE ❜ ❜ . . . &_ @pahriahs : ! 𝑓𝑡. m. gray
