Maybe someday I won't be haunted by the thoughts that will forever be only thoughts because I do not have the courage to ask How happy you were, You hadn't seen her in what felt like years. How her lips tasted, Soft but not the vanilla bean coated ones you whispered sweet nothings to for the past half a year How it felt, To make love in a bed that you've made a child by someone else in To have someone else's warmth surrounding you while I'm covered in hospital blankets and bleeding memories How your heart raced When you saw my car outside and knew you invited an invader in our loving home How you live with yourself You lay beside a girl who's never been so broken before until you decided that you didn't want to wait. You kiss a girl who distracts her inner thoughts because months later it's still you and another girl holding hands under her childhood blanket And one more question Why
