Me and my sister celebrating 5x15
HAPPY 5x15, ARASHI AND ALL THE ARASHISTS AROUND THE GLOBE!
Before I send out my message to Arashi, here is a little story I had tonight preparing for 5x15.
Last year, I failed celebrating 5x14 because of a very important school work I can’t manage to get out from. I was so sad that I wasn’t able to celebrate Arashi’s anniversary that year because it has been my routine for 2 years in my 7 years in the fandom (I know, 2 out of 7…veryyyyy sucky, but better late than never). And this year, my work schedule has been really tight, so I thought of skipping it again this year..but something in me made my feet go and do what I had to do tonight.
A typhoon advisory had been announced today and the wind outside is really crazy. But fangirl don’t care, fangirl got shit to do. As I was walking to the cake shop, I was continuously questioning my rationality - the rain was pouring hard, the wind was blowing mad and my umbrella was using all its power to somehow protect me. The self- doubt stopped in the middle of my walk – I started thinking of how I am crazy in love over the five guys who make Arashi. I was more excited and happy than burdened and hassled with the rain. To tell this to a non-fan, surely my image will be bordering between crazy and creepy. I know, I also have a hard time making the other me(s) living inside me understand the dominant me. Yes, I agree, it is crazy to spend so much time, money, energy and emotion on people you may or may not meet in the entirety of your life.
But here is what I really want to say, I love Arashi.
Arashi have made me really happy, this is the only fandom I have felt at home, this is the only fandom I have felt peace, this is the only fandom that made me tell myself that I can achieve my dreams and that I should always have hope, this is the only fandom that made me genuinely happy. Arashi is one of the few reasons that made me want to live. It will sound as if I am a girl who depends her sanity on fantasies – but no. Arashi just made me realize that in this scary reality, there is that important beauty that you need to witness. Think whatever you may want, but this life is a mess, and if you see something that gives you the motivation to go on with this life and will make you say that this is a beautiful world despite everything - go on. Nothing should be wrong with outsourcing happiness as long as you do things in line. We have no responsibility to explain the practicality of our happiness because happiness is never measured by that.
Anyway, to Arashi, Arigatou! Thank you so much, the seven years of knowing you were beautiful. I have no other words to say, but thank you so much for the genuine happiness that you have brought into my life. Aishiteru, Aiba, Matsujun, Nino, Riida, Sho, Aishiteru, Arashi! I promise to stay and love you and this fandom as long as I can. No words could ever tantamount on how grateful I am.
I have my endless wish of happiness for you, guys. I really wish you nothing but all the best! I am a proud Arashist, and I will always be.
Whatever I am in is more than fangirling. Thank you for the beautiful years, Arashi! Thank you for the happiness, Arashi! Happy 15th year anniversary, Happy 5x15, Arashi!