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Seraphina::Lists.//.Identity

A list of things I have done:

           I have visited the Infernous.

           I have taken on the mark of the Unie’ndis.

           I have loved a dekn.

           I have loved an arkn.

           I have killed a dekn.

           I have killed an arkn.

           I have slain the innocent.

           I have slain the guilty.

           I have watched my own father through the scope of a gun.

           I have watched people burn.

           I have been the one to start the fire.

           I have spared a life.

           I have been beaten within inches of my own.

           I have broken rules.

           I have enforced laws.

           I have said nothing when I should have said something.

           I have said something when I should have said nothing.

           I have watched my brother suffer.

           I have covered my scars in ink.

           I have spent my entire life training.

           I have lived a lie.

A list of things I have never done:

           I have never known civilian life.

           I have never been able to rest.

           I have never had a family.

           I have never missed my mark.

           I have never met a human.

           I have never been to a museum.

           I have never went to see a film.

           I have never gone to school.

           I have never known my mother.

           I have never thought to miss her.

           I have never met my brother.

           I have never met my father.

           I have never had a choice.

A list of questions I should not have asked:

           Where did you find me?

           Who are my parents?

           Who did this to you?

           What are you hiding from me?

           Why did I ask?

           What do you want me to do?

           Who is next?

           Why me?

           Why does it have to be him?

           Is it worth it?

           Why did it have to be like this?

A list of things I don’t want to talk about:

           Where I came from.

           My brother (and his subsequent torment).

           My father (and his abandonment—of more than just me).

           My tattoos.

           The people I’ve killed.

           The people I haven’t killed.

           Myself.

A list of facts:

           I was born of and for fire.

           I was raised by a dekn.

           Said dekn (Lilis) worked for the Carver until she found me.

           I come from a royal line.

           I want nothing to do with the royal line.

           Upon asking about my parents, mine and Lilis’s lives were threatened.

           I am a bastard child.

           I have yet to visit .reality.

           I am descended from two of the hethe.

           I have inherited their blood.

           I know what this means.

           I have told no one.

           I am scared.

My name is Seraphina.  I was born of the Infernous.  My father is King Uriel, son of King Gilgamesh.  I am a Valk.  I am an Arknza.  And I am not supposed to be here.