Times like these I really hate being aromantic
I've known I'm aro for four years now and it gets harder as time goes on
The numbness and emptiness that comes with the knowledge I miss out on things most people my age experience regularly. And yet I also can't bring myself to give a single shit
Sometimes I want to be loved and I want to love someone, but most of the time that idea disgusts me
I want someone to hold me when I need it, comfort me, someone who is there for me, someone I can be weak around and not strong all the time with. But also I don't really want that
I've never been kissed and the idea of it makes me uncomfortable but sometimes I want it but for the most part I don't want it at all
I don't know what I want
Sometimes I feel the more time passes, the more aromantic I get
Other times I just want to be loved, and I want to love someone
I don't have any specific aro label for myself because I fit under multiple, and none at the same time so I just use aro as an umbrella label which doesn't help me understand what I am. Because for me I need specific labels to fit to myself and say "hey that's what I am" but I don't. know.
I hate it. I wish I wasn't aromantic sometimes.














