#art process thoughts

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75% ratio on Artfight this year, I wonder if I can raise it up to 80% and maintain it for the rest of the month. Drawing little guys help but feels like cheating tbh.

We're almost a week into it and already did as many attacks as last year and I'm only 2 away from my most productive year. Drawing times have gotten a bit out of control but I think I can get it together.

The next character I want to draw is very not-tabaha, but I really like the design.

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Ok, good news, I think I've been making decent progress on drawing faster. The thing I just finished today was like 12 hours with full process (no lineart, just cleaned up sketch) and background with fancy-ish things

But I'm now mega aware I need to rethink my colours for skin shadows and I need time to play with it orz

[tabaha]

Okay, I can take only 5 hours to draw something from start to finish. Probably around 4 hours if it's just one character. I should test run this a bit more but it kinda takes a lot of energy.

Although I still need to figure out some issues, like my sketch layer being half transparent because of the brush I use. I need to see if I can just change the brush settings or if I need a second pass on stuff

And it's still hard to lock in for more than an hour without starting to get distracted, I need to figure that out too.

[tabaha]

Slay the Spire 2 is still keeping me from drawing, mostly because I'm avoiding my current WIP.

A weird combination of trying to force the no lineart and a pose I'm not familiar with.

I really like the idea of no lineart but the workflow I have for it makes no sense and it takes way more time compared to having the lines. It's probably not sane unless I have a really clean sketch? And in the end I'm not sure if I'm sold on the visuals of it.

Anyway, we're less than a month away from artfight and my average art time is around 20 hours and I need to shorten this up.

Yesterday I managed to do a quick thing in 4ish hours with basically just the sketch and mostly rough rendering. It would be insane if I could pull it off during artfight, but it is going to be a compromise on quality. On the other hand, my ratio would be insane if I could finish something every other day. OR EVERY DAY even (nah just kidding, even if I didn't burn out, finding enough characters and poses to draw would be tiresome)

[tabaha]

I'm so tempted to go back to a 1080p or 2k for the canvas size instead of 8k because everything is so much easier to render and easier to get away with silly stuff when it's much smaller

The downside is that I have less space overall and it makes things harder in a different way

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anyway in further positivity thoughts that's only the second attempt at horsey drawing I've made so I'm pretty okay with how that turned out

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some of the things I have difficulty with in art is facial expressions and panel flow and you know, just actually producing content on a regular basis

so anyway as a way to work on those things I've been fancasting characters into scenes I like and finding gifsets of them to replicate, so you'll probably see a lot of them coming up

[justpar]

it is important that it's just a representation. it's not even convincing. it's the "liberal feminism" embroidering grotesque trope. It's my body horror and I feel completely unaffected by it. There are times when you almost decide to believe in it but then you don't really.

It's what I fear about myself, my growing suspicion/belief that I've got some form of depression, where it makes me late for everything even though I set a time for me to leave the house because it takes me too long to get myself to stand up, where it makes me feel like I'm floating or like I'm not fully here or like it takes energy I don't have to stand up and walk to the kitchen around across the room to feed myself.

But I feel disconnected from it. It's not putrid and it's not grotesque and it's not visceral, it's the absolute opposite of that. It's not even convincing, you don't really fully believe it, you almost choose to and then decide against it.