she was holding a gun she shouldn't have while going to a place she illegally found out . it was all for the greater good , she told herself that in order to keep going . she wasn't a cop yet but she was very close to being , which meant she already knew how to trace someone , how to find out where they were . when she received Jonathan's worrying text asking for help ( he had only managed to write SOS & she had no clue what could possibly be happening ) she didn't hesitate into finding a way of getting to him . perhaps it was reckless to do it all by herself , but trying to get help & explain the situation would only slow her down . if something happened to him because she was too late , because she waited too long , she'd never be able to forgive herself . so she tracked his phone , found out his last location . it was simple enough . firmly holding the weapon in her hands , she pointed it at whoever appeared in front of her once she found the place .
& then she immediately dropped it on the floor once she met the familiar eyes .
" what the fuck are you doing here !? what did you --- " there was blood EVERYWHERE , all over him , & she felt dizzy & nauseous . it wasn't the smell or sight of it that made her feel sick , but the realisation of what had happened . her bottom lip was trembling as much as her hands , she was sweating but never felt so cold before . she moved forward to look behind him , to observe the evidence left behind , to find anything that would assure her that the body , or at least what was left of it , belonged to the very person she was looking for . it didn't take more than a second for her to recognize him & she immediately turned away , throwing up . it was Jonathan . the friend she had come to trust , that she grew close to , lying in the bloody mess Malcom made of him . she was shaking uncontrollably by then , unable to turn around again in fear that she'd see him again ( as if that image wouldn't forever remain with her . )
there were two possible explanations for it , & both included her trusting someone she shouldn't have . the Malcom she knew was incapable of doing something like that to someone who didn't deserve it . which meant she was friends with a massive piece of shit . he had been in her house , had spent so much time with her , had uncovered some of her secrets , had gotten so close to her with his charming ways . all of it a big mask to hide who he really was . it was either that or her boyfriend LIED to her , which she found hard to believe . she looked him in the eyes when he told her the whole truth , he stopped trying to hide it , he couldn't possibly be a ruthless serial killer .
her head felt like it was about to explode & it took all of her efforts to lean against the nearest wall instead of collapsing on the ground . she felt betrayed , confused , sick & stupid . that couldn't be happening . it was a nightmare & she needed to wake up right that second .
" I --- I was l-looking for HIM . " she managed to let out between sobs , her eyes tightly closed as she tried to catch her breath . || @ashensolitude ( x )