('open when' meme) from Kiran ☠: i'm gone
Before my muse disappeared, they gave yours a series of ‘open when’ letters || accepting || @kirandesilva
Kiran,
We both knew this was going to be coming sooner rather than later… I just hate that it has to be this soon. I don’t want to have to leave any of you, quite honestly, and yes, you are obviously included in this list. Why would I have taken the time to write this letter out if you weren’t? You’ve seen more in me than most people ever would… and that’s just not something I will ever be able to let go. Around you there always seemed to be that little bit of hope that things will go better, that things will turn out alright in the end…
And even after circumstances made us just friends, you always brought about a sense of comfort to me. I never could explain why or how, and writing it out certainly isn’t making it any easier to vocalize what my thoughts are… but its there. It was always there, from the very beginning when we shared that bowl of ice cream together. When we were mistaken as a couple at the very beginning at the diner on Valentines Day. God… I truly miss that. I miss when times were simple, when I wasn’t anything more than just a simple human being. Do you think if that never happened we would have still been together?
Not that it really matters, I guess… just a silly question. Even if we aren’t together… there was always that comfort you gave me. Even as friends, it was always there, right up until the end. You made it just a little easier to accept this fate, to help get things in order so that I don’t leave behind any loose ends… including this:
Please watch over Aubrey. I trust you with all my heart, and I want nothing more than for her to be safe… for her to be happy. You don’t have to interact with her… just… please. Please check up on her from time to time. Her life won’t be easy… I ensured that fact before she had ever been born because I was a blasted fucking fool. But maybe… just maybe, that bit of comfort that you gave to me, can be extended to my daughter. That her life can be just a little bit easier to live through with a guardian angel of sorts watching over her.
Now, don’t you roll your eyes at that… I know its cheesy, and I know you’re a bounty hunter. But still. Aubrey, however, isn’t the only person I want safe. She isn’t the only person that I want to be happy.
I want you to be happy, Kiran. I want you to never take that necklace I gave you off. Consider it my dying wish, if that gets you to do it. You’re a good man, Kiran. You always have been and you always will… someday, somebody will see it just like I did.
~ Love always, Emmalyn
