#ask enyxha

[enyxha]

i know that its been over a year but i still havent let go of stillmonsterz so yes i am desperate enough to ask this.. do you think what she wrote in the tags of her last post could have been a bit of a goodbye 😭 https://www.tumblr.com/stillmonsterz/750496724569800704/i-just-finished-the-brave-it-together-parts-and

"you were my first mutual thanks for sticking around" like am i overthinking it or does that sound like something that could have been an indication of lucky leaving because thats the kind of thing youd say to someone when you're not gonna speak to them again 😭😭 also the fact that her other mutual (i forgot their name) who wrote a fic called cherry?? about heeseung left tumblr so idkk

you're not the only one. i haven't let go of lucky in the slightest. I'm not sure at all about that. I'm also moots w addictedtohobi on my main blog. moon7jay (author of cherry)' departure didn't seem like a motivator for her to leave in our last few conversations. but really, that's just how lucky words her sentences to me.

personally, I'm contemplating writing part 3 of brave it together to continue lucky's work. not that i think i am capable of executing her level of expertise, but i feel like we all deserve the ending as we've been waiting for her.

[enyxha]

9 months without stillmonsterz im going insane 😔 i hope she comes back but if not brave it together pt3 will haunt me til the very day i die 💔

omfg, word 😭😭

i literally count the days and months that lucky's been gone, and i can't believe it's already nearing a year. i miss her more than anyone that's mysteriously vanished off this app. believe me, i too am waiting patiently for her return 🥲 until then, who's to know what brave it together part 3 will bring?

[enyxha]

hi!! im so sorry if youve had this question before but do you know what happened to stillmonsterz?? i'm the 🍡 anon on their account and ive been waiting since like may for them to return since they went mia out of nowhere 😭 brave it together is my fave enha fic of all time and i loved seeing their replies to asks and interacting with them, i hope theyre okay ☹️

@stillmonsterz, the people miss you.

hi dango anon! that's okay, you're not the first who came asking me where stillmonsterz went, and you're not the only one wondering either :')

i myself have no idea where lucky has been since may. i haven't seen her online in a long time nor has she replied to my slew of messages since she's been gone. she did say she'd deleted tumblr from her phone to focus on writing the final part of birds of a feather and that she'd been on tumblr on her computer ever since, but after dropping the teaser, she disappeared. lucky has mentioned that she has no intentions of leaving enhablr yet and plans to stay for a long time, and her sudden disappearance has left me worried. she is, after all, one of the few friends I've ever made on tumblr. the other person i would think of asking where lucky went is moon7jay, but they have already left tumblr. :'(

aside from friendship, lucky is a brilliant writer. reading her early works had me hooked on her from the start. that girl took on dark topics so masterfully and no writer enhablr I've known has come close to her level of dark. i never planned on revealing this, but lucky has spoiled the outline and events in the final part of birds of a feather to me long ago, long before she even posted the teaser (to anyone reading this,i do not intend to ever reveal the details, so please do not ask.) to say that her sudden disappearance from the internet was upsetting and worrying would not be enough. i can only pray and hope that she's doing fine in real life, or wherever she is right now.

[enyxha]

aw baby i hope you’re okay i can tell that the both of you were very close :( i hope she can reach out to you one day

thank you anon, you're so sweet. for the most part i am doing fine, but i do terribly miss lucky. her twitter was still up last i checked, just offline. i did send her messages there before too, but still, no reply. I'll still be waiting for her regardless :')

[enyxha]

oh my god lucky deactivated within the last 10 days 💔 someone linked one of her fics on 10 december and now its 20 december but the fic is not available and the account is deactivated

oh my god. thank you for letting me know anon, I wasn't aware :'(( lucky hasn't reached out to me at all, so i guess it's the end for now. I can only pray and hope that nothing untoward has happened to her, and only that she's done with Tumblr—for now.

anyone who's looking might still find her fics from my reblogs. I'll keep an eye out from my end. my DMs are open for you and anyone else.

[enyxha]

any recommendations of sunoo smut?

none, I don't read sunoo smut and they rarely even pass through my radar.

[enyxha]

just saw this post that lucky made a month before she disappeared.. https://www.tumblr.com/stillmonsterz/747574932507131904/yall-cant-write-smut-without-degrading-and does this mean she was always planning a hiatus omg 😭

hi anon, noo i don't think so. if you look at the posts she made after that, she took a break from posting for about 5 days. that was the hiatus she meant, i assure you. also, when she wasn't posting, we would DM each other, keeping in contact almost on a daily basis. now this reminded me it's been nearly exactly a year since she's been gone :') i send her a DM from time to time, yk?

lucky has told me before and also posted herself that she does not plan to leave enhablr for a long time yet, bar certain circumstances. she disappeared without a word and quite suddenly, I'd say. i don't think this was entirely intentional. i just hope she's okay.

[enyxha]

WAIT I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT BRAVE IT TOGETHER???? It's been so long since it was released and I was anticipating the third part and I did wait for a few months until life caught up to me and I got distracted... I need to go and read that fic again rn omg I hope lucky comes back!

yesssss lucky's works are great even to reread! i probably will too since I've finally finished with finals.

we're all waiting for Her @stillmonsterz