[Jevil wakes up from nap. Tw suicidal ideation. And I guess a bit of derealization. Please keep yourself safe]
*it hurts, is all jevil really thought when he woke up. It hurt and was uncomfortable. He slowly pushed himself off the floor, his horn in hand.*
*he stumbles over th the kitchen and turns on the sink. He uses the cold water to get the blood off of his face... well at least most of it. The wound is still tender.*
*speaking of it, he horn in his hand looks perfect. There are no dents or scratchs in the keratin, and the smoot velvet is just now starting to peel away from it. He held it for so long. He could take his claw and gently peel the velvet away. The soft blue of the velvet gives way to the deep purple of the keratin*
*It shows that he didn't do anything too bad. He didn't get too hurt. He can behave. Tenna is happy when he behaves... Which is not something he does often*
*He does hope tenna likes it... At least so that he could can have a piece of jevil on him at all times.*
*.... And how long did he sleep for? He hopes that everyone is alright. And that his "extended vacation" didn't bother anyone.*
*he reaches into his liquor cabinet and grabs the fullest bottle of alcohol.*
*.... Well other then the god proof vodka that he hasn't drinken yet. He doesn't think he could ever finish that bottle*
*he should talk to audience soon... And heir. He prayed for the first time in a long time to their mother. He needs to talk to them at some time...*
*pulling the bottle down from the cabinets he looks at it to see that it's a wine. A very nice wine that he got a while ago. He's pretty sure the stole it after his fight with the heros. There is a lot of dust of the bottle*
*the label is too scuffed to read what's exactly in it... But he's sure this will do. It is better not to have memorys if he keeps on with his plan*
*he will have his talk with the repairman, he will pay him back for all he has done, he will tell pipi and crayon where he will be if they need him, he will visit audience and heir, tell them the same, maybe he will say goodbye to rec.*
*.... He really doesn't want to hurt rec. And the thought that both versions on his father are locked away probably won't do him good.... But jevil already messed up their relationship*
*.... And if tenna finds out his plan he won't be happy... But they both should know its for the best... But jevil will try to find someone to give tenna his horn and a note... He won't be able to look his CRT in the eyes*
*it would become a fight. And jevil is being selfish. Jevil is being selfish over the fact that he doesn't want to tell tenna that he is going to lock himself away. God... think about how awful tenna would feel about it, and he wouldn't let jevil do it*
*he can't tell tenna*
*he takes the bottle and horn to a little note pad. He will give the note to the repairman, and he will give it to tenna. The two of them can have a good cry over it. And then the repairman doesn't have to deal with his baggage.*
*he's so selfish. But he doesn't want to wait around for the ball to drop any more! He's so tired of waiting! Waiting, waiting, waiting. He just wants tenna to be happy. And it looked like he was a lot happier then he didn't know of jevil.*
*jevil should make sure that tenna goes back to being that shinning star in the sky. Something he can only see from a distance. Jevil only hurts tenna. He sinks his claws into him and draws blood. Why would tenna want to keep him around any longer?*
*Besides, jevil has started corrupting tenna. tenna has done stupid things and has said stupid things ever since jevil came into his life. It was all his fault. He shouldn't have threatened to kill himself to his court over something that didn't even matter, or, bring up the magnet thing, or kidnap fell! Mike, or write those poems, or even be here in the first place*
*he has done nothing mess up. People are stronger than him. People are smarter than him. People are more emotionally stable than him. They don't need him. Everything would be better is he died!*
*...But he can't. He has kids. So locking himself away is the next best option.*
*besides if tenna really wants to be around him, he can visit. Even though jevil knows he doesn't like his poetry. He is just so worried that tenna doesn't even like him. Tenna's just humoring him.*
*.... Well.... The stars claim that he will be trapped either way, and he wants it to be by his hand.*
*he really doesn't want to wait for tenna to leave him or realize he wasn't joking when he said he couldn't love. God he didn't know how to love. Not his friend. Not his partner. Not his kids. He has done nothing but mess up.*
*... But he's also selfish and he doesn't want to let tenna go. He wants to dig his claws into tenna until he draws blood. Or oil. Or whatever is pumped through his body. He wants to have him by him without any way of leaving or locking him away. He would carry his head around, to every place he goes. But that is him being selfish*
*these thoughts are why he needs to be locked away. He's dangerous. He hurts people. And he hurts people he loves.*
*he already knew he was a monster. Everyone in the card kingdom once had to make sure that he was no where near them. He takes everything out on others. He likes their fear. He likes seeing the life drain from their eyes. He knows that normal people don't think like that. That's why he was locked up the first place. Because he is a monster. And he hasn't changed. He hasn't change because he is incapable of change*
*that is why he will hurt tenna... He just hopes that this is the best way to hurt him... And he will just.... not let him know*
*he goes to leave, note, horn, and bottle of wine in hand. He opens the door... And tenna is right there...*
@ask-tenna
