#ask-asuna-san

[twinbladedemon]

Moan :*

((Initiating random number generator!))23 - my muse blindfolds yours. Kirito tied the black cloth securely around his girlfriend’s eyes. “Can you see anything?" he asked, lightly licking her ear in the process. 

[twinbladedemon]

Claimed

RANDOM NUMBER GNERATOR GOOOOOOOOOOOO! 3 - Kiss anywhere you choose. 

"Well, Asuna?" Kirito asked, smirking good-naturedly. “Where should I kiss you?"

[twinbladedemon]

Any one of my SAO buddies want to RP while I'm on my lunch break?

[the-neptacular-neptune-blog]

While Kirito had spoken to Asuna in Aincrad recently, he was still so conflicted over what was happening. His conversation with Suguha had been short, and he was still just as lost there. It seemed like there were just no good choices. There was no way to make things okay, like they used to be.

But then, wasn't it just falsehood before? He had been laying in a bed with Suguha crying over him. Was that really any better? In SAO he had been married to Asuna, but in reality Suguha was suffering. Then with ALO, it was just the opposite for most of the time. Suguha was happy on an adventure with him, while Asuna was stuck in a cage. Was there ever going to be a true middle ground? Could there ever be?

Why did it seem that there would never be a true end to the fight?

He sat on the front porch of his home in Aincrad. His gaze focused on nothing in particular as he was in deep thought. Asuna knew what was going on. Kirito wasn't lying to her about his conflicted feelings. He had told her exactly what had been on his mind. There was a part of him that wanted to hold her, and never let her go. Asuna meant the world to him. She had been the force that had driven him to save so many lives.

But Suguha wasn't any less important.

Had she not been there to help him, all of those people would still be stuck in ALO, and Asuna as well. He would have failed to save them. Nothing was fair. It just couldn't be. "Asuna..." He spoke quietly to the girl he knew was standing next to him, obviously no happier than he was over all this. "..." What could he say at this point? She had been his wife. They had been happy, his feelings for her were so strong. Yet at the same time he couldn't stop thinking about that day when he was left leaning against Suguha's door while she cried. Each tear that had fallen from her cheeks had fallen because he had been an idiot.

Because he had truly failed her.

Her more than anyone.

He had been blind, and ignorant. Her words rang in his head even now. At the same time, when he had found out what she had been feeling, he began to see things he had never seen before. The memories of his life seemed different. She had been there, he had grown up with her. They had shared special moments together. <...Sugu...Why me? Why do you love me?...> Kirito had always thought he was going to end up fighting other guys off of her as her big brother. But when she said all that to him, it changed all of those thoughts. The thought of someone else being close to her was now painful. The thought of her not being at his side hurt. She wasn't his sister, and he had known it. But at the same time, it really hadn't sank in until that pivotal moment.

Especially after their time in ALO together.

"...Why do you love me Asuna? What makes me so great?" His eyes darted downward, only to notice a few tears had dropped from his cheeks. Even this house seemed to be different now. It was as if things were moving forward around him, and he was unable to go. "...Even if I saved lives... The truth is that all of those I saved have more courage than I do... You all persevered... You never gave up... You fought for what you believed in no less than I did... You're all heroes just as much as I am... And some of you more so..." His voice was only loud enough to reach her, the tone showing his sadness. He was never very good at hiding his emotions.

"...I'm not that person that you believe me to be... I don't even know who he was anymore... Kirito isn't me... That's just the name I made up for a game... We wanted this all to stay how it was... But it couldn't stay that way... No... We have to move on... To go forward somehow... But I can't move..." He stood, turning to her, wanting to be with her in this moment. A part of him was already kissing her, taking her into his arms as he did.

The other part of him was reliving the moment Suguha told him that she loved him, wondering why he didn't say anything.

Why did he just let her suffer?

"I'm trying to go in two directions, when I can only move in one... How am I supposed to do it...? I have to break the heart of someone dear to me to move..." His gaze began to falter, feeling tears welling up in his eyes. "...I can't do it... I can't hurt either of you... Hasn't there been enough pain?!" His voice began to crack some as the tears began to flow. "...I love you Asuna... You know I do! But I... I just..." He dropped to his knees, finally feeling powerless. "Sugu..." Defeat didn't come from a sword or a spell. There was nothing he could fight back against. His hands came to his face, the emotions overwhelming him and sobs taking over.

He could no longer bear the pain of his heart being in two halves.

[kuwara]

Blue, Money, Picture, Yellow =P

Blue: What song do you listen to when you’re feeling down?

~I Like to listen to “The Swan” when I don’t feel happy. Idk why but it just cheers me up. ^.^

Money: What would you do with 1 million dollars?

~This might sound kind of selfish but I’d like to use it to make me and my friends to Europe. ^^’

Picture: Post a pic of your lovely face.

Yellow: What’s your favourite colour?

~I like the color aquamarine. c:

[kuwara]

New icon

New icon yay.

[katara-of-the-water-tribe]

"I've never heard of any of those places. I'm from Japan and I've never heard of any of them." Asuna looked down upset, and then took tea from Katara.

''What is Japan? Where's that?'' Her brows pulled together once again.

[katara-of-the-water-tribe]

"F-fire nation? What's that?" Asuna stuttered, but smiled when she heard the offering of tea, "I'd love some tea if you don't mind..."

''What do you mean? It's Fire Nation.'' Katara frowned as she poured the tea to cups. ''You know, where the Fire Lord lives. Like Earth Kingdom and Water Tribes.'' She offered a cup to the girl.