#asks:ptsd

[askbowtieanderson-blog]

i recently started new meds too and the alcohol thing is annoying me also. personally i don't care if i drink or not, but everyone expecting me to and wanting explanations for why i don't is getting to me. we can be strong together!

I’m sorry it’s getting to you, Anon. It can get really annoying when people constantly want to know why you’re not drinking anymore, especially if you’re not ready to tell them the real reason. I think the best thing to do is just remember that your health is way more important than friends wanting you to drink. You don’t owe them an explanation anyway - I just said it was for health reasons (which is sort of true).

We’ll fight the peer pressure together, Anon!

[askbowtieanderson-blog]

How do you feel with the meds? I remember it can be kind of scary the first week or so.

It’s definitely weird. I’ve only been taking them for a couple of days so I guess it takes longer to get used to the effects of them. I haven’t really been able to eat too much lately and these sleeping pills are making me feel pretty awful, but I assume I’ll get used to them. 

It’s just hard to get rid of that voice in my head that keeps on trying to tell me the meds aren’t going to work and I’d be better off without them. 

[askbowtieanderson-blog]

Oh... I was one of those anons. :) I was hoping you didn't wait too long because I did. And from personal experience, talking to someone is uncomfortable at the beginning but it does get better as they get to know you. But don't ever apologize for doing what you felt was right for you.

Firstly, I’m sorry you ever had to go through an experience where it was necessary to talk to someone in that capacity and even if you did wait a while, at least you got help in the end. That’s the important and amazing thing, right? I’ll remember that; it was pretty awkward but she had to explain a lot of things so I’m sure you’re right and it’ll get better. This whole process takes time, that’s what she kept on reminding me.

I feel like I should say sorry again, but I won’t. Instead I’ll simply thank you again for being so understanding and caring. It means a lot to know that people I don’t even know - people that I’ve never met, care about me and about Kurt. 

[askbowtieanderson-blog]

Hey Blaine, I just want to say that I'm really proud of you. I know you really didn't want to go talk to someone, so the fact that you did and that you're going to continue is really admirable. I hope it helps you feel more like yourself again.

Oh wow, thank-you. Your support means a lot - so much. I have a feeling you’re one of the Anons who were trying to get me to talk to someone earlier, in which case I’m really sorry I didn’t listen back then. Waiting for it to get better on its own wasn’t the smartest decision I’ve ever made. I hope it helps too. 

Thanks again.

[askbowtieanderson-blog]

could you explain why you don't want to talk to a professional? i don't understand what could be so bad about it.

I don’t know if I can explain it. I’m sure there’s nothing bad about going to see one but I just - I…I don’t know. I honestly don’t know. I just don’t want to. The idea scares me. I don’t want to go to someone who doesn’t know me and be forced to tell them about things I don’t even feel comfortable telling those closest to me. I don’t want to sit in some chair whilst this ‘professional’ tells me I’ve got a problem, because I’m already well aware of that. 

Those reasons sound pretty pathetic now I’ve written them out, don’t they?

[askbowtieanderson-blog]

well talking does make it more real, and it might hurt worse for a bit. but my personal experience is that after it gets worse it gets soooooo much better. if you're not ready... hot chocolate is another great solution :)

Hot chocolate sounds awesome. So I think I’ll go with that suggestion first. As long as Sam and I actually have the stuff to make it. If not…will poptarts be a decent substitute? ‘Cause we have tons of those.

[askbowtieanderson-blog]

oh hun, don't let anyone force you to talk if you really don't want to. but it probably would help in the long run. especially because you seemed upset about it. some things are hard to just get over without support, even if they seem insignificant.

I know. I’ll think about it. I’m just scared talking about it will make it worse - it’ll make it real. Thank-you for being so nice, it means a lot. 

[askbowtieanderson-blog]

hun, you should talk to kurt about everything. it might really help and i'm sure he would be happy to listen.

First off thank-you for this, compared to the other stuff in my askbox this is…sweet. But there’s nothing to talk about. I’m fine. And I really just want to forget about all of this.