#asra hcs

[steponmepinkjun]

I know we've never talked but I was scrolling through your blog and saw a post that reminded of how the song The Night We Met by Lord Huron makes me think of Asra after MC's death and I literally can't listen to that song without crying anymore. I've been avoiding that fucking song like the plague for so long bc it always makes me cry so hard I nearly drown in my own tears. Every. Single. Time. And I just can't. I'm not strong enough. Just hearing the song in my head rn makes me want to cry,,,,

I actually have a whole playlist of songs that make me sad and, like, more than half of them are songs that just remind me of Asra after MC's death. Those are always the worst. The other ones I can actually listen to without crying if I'm not already sad but the ones that make me think of Asra... hoo-boy!

Anyway, I just wanted to share this with someone, idk. Feel free to ignore this lmao.

Oh you want BIG ASRA SAD SONGS? OH I'LL GIVE YOU SAD, BABEY. BUCKLE UP MY SWEET.

I'mma give you a journey, okay? A timeline. Trust me on this, I'll guide you through the hurt right on to the sunshine again. Set you up reeeeal good for that sweet sweet heartbreaking angsty shit and then follow through with some soft, gentle healing. So first imma need you to listen to "Home" by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros and think of it as Asra and MC's dynamic prior to their death, traveling together, utterly comfortable and devoted to each other, reveling in the beauty of the world next to their best friend, the love of their life. Then imma need you to listen to "You Belong to Me" by Santo & Johnny and imagine Asra and mc slow dancing in the moonlight during their summer in Nopal before the plague. Arm in arm, content with the silence and the intimacy and wondering how life could possibly get better than this. And "Overtime" by Lucinda Williams when you imagine their lazy mornings together, feeling warmer than the sun in each other's arms. After that, put on "Still" by Daughter and think of the unbearable silence of the shop after MC's death. The way Asra would slowly slip further and further into the depths of the grief he was fighting. "Please Don't Go" by Barcelona when you imagine him waking in the morning, reaching to their side of the bed, expecting them to be there, before his conscious mind reminds him of the awful truth. "Sea of Love" by Cat Power when you picture the moment of their resurrection, how he must have held them so desperately, weeping over the feeling of them in his arms once again, and the confusion on their face, in equal measure. The violent, wracking sobs that would move the apprentice to silent tears for reasons they couldn't understand. "Fever Dream" by Iron & Wine when you picture the way Asra tirelessly cared for them, fed them, bathed them, rubbed coconut oil on their skin in the evenings and kissed their forehead each morning, every day, day after day, even though they couldn't get speak. "Beach Baby" by Bon Iver when you're ready to picture the way, after their first words, or the first time they reached for him after a nightmare, or the first time they laughed, truly laughed, since their return, and how Asra would smile at them so tenderly and then steal away, out of sight, to cry for their suffering, their confusion, the guilt that wracked him wondering if he'd done the right thing, the regret and the loss and the knowledge of all the memories from their Before that they'd never share again. "Wish That You Were Here" by Florence + The Machine when he misses their old self, but more than anything wishes that they could have all they've lost once again—and realizes he's falling in love with them all over again, for both the same and also entirely different reasons. "Angels" by The XX the first time they look at him with the same tenderness they did before. And, finally, "Love Song" by Lana del Rey when he's laying in bed the night after their first kiss, too overwhelmed with emotion to sleep, overcome with the possibilities and the grief for the past but most of all the all-consuming, weighty, impossible chance that his once in a lifetime love... has returned to him.

[asras-damn-smirk]

give me ur top 5 headcanons about asra

[Alrighty! Thank you for asking!]

Top 5 Asra headcanons

Asra is the type of person that just knows where everything is. No matter how cluttered or scattered his living space is. It’s very helpful. It’s also perplexing. Perhaps he’s just used to knowing how to navigate through “organized messes”. What might take you ages to find might take him a moment. That also goes for locations, as well.

He has the kind of memory where he can tell you what happened that one time years ago.  Down to the last detail. What he wore, what he had for dinner and how it looked like it wasn’t going to storm but didn’t. However, when it comes to remembering what he did yesterday or a couple days ago, it’s not that clear. His memory is a finicky thing, sometimes. There are moments where he forgets things he shouldn’t, like eating. You’d think that since he used to live on the wharf that eating would never slip his mind yet it’s a possibility that he’s grown accustomed to ignoring his hunger, especially when it comes to tending to matters he believes are more urgent.

Asra is light on his feet and has the tendency to startle people who aren’t used to him randomly popping up. He’s too quiet, too quick. You won’t know he’s there unless he speaks or you can catch how loud his clothes are. When he was younger and living with Muriel, he had to get used to announcing his presence so he wouldn’t startle the guy. Sometimes, he uses this to his advantage when he’s feeling mischievous. Maybe he’d tap a friend’s shoulder (when he knows it’s okay to touch them) and pretend he hadn’t done so.

As a child, he was very excitable. He wanted to experience everything and meet everyone. Sometimes, his enthusiasm would get him in trouble and Muriel would have to come to his rescue. Asra went through his days, living like time was going to run out and he couldn’t stand to stay in one place and do nothing! That’s boring! Most of that rambunctious spirit has carried on to his adult life, of course. It wouldn’t be strange for him to have difficulty sleeping since his mind is racing about what he could do tomorrow.

He notices small things about those close to him. Physical or verbal tics. Things that even they themselves don’t know about. He’d point it out randomly, chuckling at their astonishment or outright denial. However, when he’s told he has his own little habits, he gets this confused look on his face like “wow, I do that?” But he doesn’t deny it. He’ll accept it with a shrug. Nothing he can do about it, after all.

[steponmepinkjun]

Writing the other confession ... an idea came to me. How about some HCs/Ideas about Asra or the main six at bedtime with MC? Would they sing then a song? Would they whisper amorous nonsense to them? Would them give to MC soft and tender caresses until they fell asleep? Or maybe a hug? omg now i'm very soft

Anyone who says that Asra doesn't have an elaborate bedtime ritual is lying to both of us but more importantly to themselves

First, snaccs. Trying to get a good night's sleep with low blood sugar is a losing game

After that is a good hot shower. Asra is a night showerer and you CANNOT convince me otherwise. Bringing the day's grime into his sleeping space? Hell no, not on his watch.

A nice hot shower, fragrant shampoos and soaps, a nice coconut and rosewater scented exfoliating scrub all over the body, and a two part face cleansing routine. He definitely brings a mug of tea or a cold glass of beer into the shower with him, because it's therapeutic as fuck.

After the shower it's time for every toner, serum, essence, oil, balm, lotion, and cream under the sun (he picked up an extensive skincare routine from Nadia, but let's be real—he doesn't need it. He could use dish soap to wash his face and foot cream to moisturize and still wake up glowing, rejuvenated, and flawless in the morning)

MC is not just invited to take part in these activities, but actively encouraged to do so. Asra will tenderly scrub their scalp with the pads of his fingers, massage the tension out of their shoulders, and even gently work slow, soapy circles over the planes of their face (all while smiling dreamily at them and wondering how he got so lucky)

After everyone is clean, moisturized, and languid, it's time to tuck in. Ever since his first sleepover in Nadia's quarters he's been unable to stomach anything less than 2000 thread count Prakran silk sheets, so the bed is lush, soft, and luxurious

But once the apprentice is laying next to him, smelling good, softer than the silk, and relaxed as can be? He can't resist pulling them close, placing the softest sucking kisses all up and down their neck, their collarbones, their shoulders

At this point, it becomes quite apparent why Asra prefers sleeping naked: easy access

😘

[steponmepinkjun]

ASRA GETTING HIS ASS ATE BY GENDER NEUTRAL APPRENTICE‼️‼️‼️🗣🗣🗣

Yall wasted NO TIME going straight for the dirty 🤣 lmfao I love yall horndogs

RATED: 18+ ONLY 

Asra Getting His 🎂 Ate 😏 by GN!Apprentice 🍋

Position wise, definitely more of a 'laying face down on the bed, biting a pillow and grinding against the mattress' type.

That, or standing, back against a counter or wall, with one leg hooked over his partners shoulder (even though he won't let them do it for long unless they have a pillow under their poor knees lmfao). There's something intimate and naughty at the same time about having their face reeeeally all up in his business that way that really gets him sweatin'.

He won't ask for it outright, he actually is still a little bit bashful about the whole idea, even during the act.

Which is funny considering he has no shame loudly offering to eat his partners booty like some groceries, unprompted, in private or public lmfao.

Not ashamed to be noisy as hell, oh, at all.

If his partner can get a good view of his face, they'll find it flushed, glowing with sweat, with his lip between his teeth when he's not moaning their name (as well as other obscene praise)

He can cum just from getting his ass ate, with a little extra time and maybe some light teasing all workday long beforehand. But he's also more than satisfied with this act as foreplay.

You can tell he's about to cum when he gets a little bolder and grips their hair or the back of their neck, and this is when the reeeeal dirty talk comes out of him.

After that Post Nut Clarity hits, he's definitely gonna be more than a little shy about the XXX Nasty™ things coming out of his mouth only minutes before lol

[steponmepinkjun]

I can't listen to the songs you mentioned yet, I'm just not ready for that emotional rollercoaster rn after the one I had earlier hjjfkkfkskfjkdkg, but here are some more sad songs that make me think of Asra and that I can't listen to without crying:

Sleeping At Last - Total Eclipse of the Heart

Bea Miller - I Can't Breathe

Hozier - Like Real People Do

Sufjan Stevens - Fourth of July

Lights - Muscle Memory

Sasha Sloan - Dancing With Your Ghost (for some reason this is one of the worst ones for me, literally just hearing the first few notes makes me instantly tear up)

Sami Yusuf - Call My Name (this is also a really bad one for me,,,)

Ben Platt - In Case You Don't Live Forever (another one that hits really hard for me)

Dave Thomas Junior - I Can't Make You Love Me

Sufjan Stevens - Visions of Gideon

Hayd - Safe & Sound (another one where literally just the first few notes are enough to make me cry)

Michael Schulte - You Said You'd Grow Old With Me (this may be the worst one from this list for me, the lyrics just hurt so much)

SYML - Where's My Love (this one,,, this fucker right here,,, this one hurts)

Coldplay - Another's Arms

Ruelle - The Other Side

5 Seconds of Summer - Ghost of You

First of all anyone who listens to/remembers Lights is automatically on like... what's the polar opposite of a shit list? A "your very existence and taste in music gives me dopamine" list? Idk I can't think of a snappier name, but that. And then I saw 5sos and was like "Ahhhh I see you're a man of culture as well" 😂 imma just make myself a lil playlist of all these right quick... so after I'm done with housework and groceries I can reward myself with a good cathartic cry 😌 Also I refuse to believe there's anyone who can listen to "like real people do" without crying even under normal circumstances smh

[asras-damn-smirk]

Good evening. Sorry to do this to you, but...

It's not too far of a jump to assume that after MC's memories are restored and everything's all sorted out, Asra develops this habit of practically falling over himself apologizing to them whenever he feels something is his fault. It can be over the smallest thing ever and he'd beat himself up over it because any type of disappointment he draws from the MC is just too damn painful. It hurts so bad because all he thinks about is how they looked back then when he couldn't tell them anything while on his journey for the solution of safely recovering their memory.

It's a harsh side effect of that event and he tries his best not to "be dramatic" (as he calls it) whenever he messes up in whatever way. MC reassures him that he's fine and that he's forgiven. Nothing will tear them away from him ever again.

And they mean it.

[asras-damn-smirk]

Afternoon, guys. Some Modern AU Asra headcanons for ya here!

-Asra gives out that slacker vibe, but he's actually good at paying back what's owed, plus a little extra. What you give him doesn't even have to be extravagant. It could be that money he asked you for to buy some ramen with and he'll offer to splurge on whatever you want. He's a pretty generous guy and you might be spoiled by his kindness.

-He was the type of student you're always lending school supplies to in class. Paper, pens, pencils. You name it, he doesn't have it. He's so poorly prepared, but he pays attention and does really well when it comes to his classes. Professor tries to catch him slippin, yet fails every time because he's a genius as much as he's a daydreamer.

-Knows aaaall the shortcuts and alternate routes you can take whenever you try to go somewhere. You'll never get lost with this boy! He's a human GPS. Road trips are practically a common occurrence when he wants to hang out.

-You'll never not know when Asra is ready to pick you up from wherever because he customized the horn of his van to honk out a rendition of Rick Astley's Never Gonna Give You Up

[kanookied]

Ok so hear me out, Asra gave half his heart to bring MC back to life, and devs have clarified that means that he's unable to feel emotions as strongly, which effects his ability to form relationships

But as we've seen with Julian, when the terms of the deal are broken, the mark disappears and everything returns to normal

So imagine, if you would, that MC ends up dying again somehow, and everyone is sad and sobbing and everything is terrible

And in the middle of all of that, Asra's mark disappears, he gets the other half of his heart back, and there's just this absolute MOUNTAIN of emotion that comes flooding over him. And he thought that he couldn't feel any worse than when MC died again, but suddenly he has the capacity to feel just as strongly as anyone else and it feels as if he's getting torn in two from the depths of his grief, and it's made even worse by the fact that he's gotten used to only feeling half of anything for three years

Anyway, this has some great angst potential and just try me