Personality, it's a personal thing.
(I was initially planning to answer question 3, with a short note in the beginning addressing what I wanted to say about question number 2. Following which I was planning to go on another head-on, strong opinion based kind of answer for question 3, which is: Who do you think would make a good leader? And why? What I wanted to do, as I usually do, would be to turn the question around like “Oh it’s a vague question as usual, as to depending on what situation and yada yada yada…” But I think we’ve all had enough of my own philosopher-wannabe, myself included. Yeah. My head just can’t take that part of brain right now. Even I have to say it can be quite a show off sometimes hahaha. So no, not today, I don’t have the energy to entertain it, so goodbye to you for now, that part of my brain.)
All I can say this is going to be a much more personal-based assignment compared to the one’s before. And it’s going to be a long read per usual, and perhaps much more boring.
So here we begin, of weird internal conversations and long introductions, assignment number three. Unit B/3, question 2:
2.) Based on your personality, describe the type of job you think would suit you, and why?
One condition before I start, even for myself: Consider not whether the job will make you immense amount of cash. I can’t care two hoots, and I don’t want to even give two hoots.
My first reaction to when I read the question was: “Oh miss, if I knew, then I would probably be studying in a course in Uni now that led to that job that suited me this very moment. T-T”
I didn’t want to answer this question because I didn’t want to give an answer that was entirely about me, me, me. This would probably sound judgemental but I had the judgement that if others were asked this question they would give the cliché, rather selfish, answers. Like if you asked an artist, they’d say ‘Oh, most certainly something that requires the bursting of my creativity self!’. Or if you asked a student who lacked self-discipline they would say, ‘A job where I can slack and still be rich,’. A response that’s pasted with ‘self-benefit’ stickers everywhere. A ‘whatever’ response that expects to repaid with utmost riches. Sorry, but, ugh, I have to say that it’s, sadly, cliché. No. I cannot. Urgh. NUH. STAHP.
Then there was this thought in my head that just went, “What on earth, Li, it’s SUPPOSED to be about YOU. It’s supposed to BE selfish, though not in the way you were thinking. It’s supposed to be based on your personality. It doesn’t have to be the same as theirs even though it may seem to others rather similar. And even by making that judgement, that’s a part of your personality right there. And who doesn’t want something that will benefit themselves? People do see ways of benefitting differently, even you.”
“Oh.” Was the reply of the blur side.
The first thing to do of course, would be to look at myself and ask me, “What’s your personality?” Here’s where we’ll stand in front of a mental mirror to take a good look at our mental reflection, so that I can understand myself, and so that you would understand you, too (which I think is part of this question’s purpose, a question to push you on self-discovery).
Here’s a small list of what I would say my personality is, as of the current time: judgemental, creative, quiet, filled with wonder to learn, short attention span, hard-on-self, and wanting to help somehow, anyhow.
(You can disagree if you’d like)
I would say that even though I have a short attention span, there’s a dying need in me that wants to learn anything and everything possible that would help me help others.
A job that would allow me the room to learn and to improve would be a blessing from heaven. I don’t just mean office/technical stuff, but also other life, necessary, physical skills. If there was an artistic job that also gives me colleagues who would love to meet up with me and the others every Friday evening to teach me how to cook, or how to use a program or painting skill better, I’d take it straight, cause then I would be able to cook for my family as I lack in any cooking skills right now (and if my group of colleagues are made of a diversity of races, EVEN BETTER.).
Being also, the kind of person who makes clumsy mistakes, and can only improve under gentle corrections and can barely function properly when stressed out by another, I think a job that would give me a mentor (preferably an older, more experienced person of a motherly/fatherly figure) to guide me through would best suit me. Someone who can help walk through things with me patiently, doesn’t mind waiting around while I experiment and practise what he/she’s thought me for a while, and would correct me where I’m wrong. For someone like me (and I’m sure some others can agree), gentler words can pierce in much more effectively than words yelled out, to which someone like me would naturally shut our mind from listening to anything as a defence mechanism.
One more thing, which I think would be of utmost importamnce for my personality. A mentor who can teach me of not only the business I’m carrying about, but life, and relates the two to give me a wider perspective. Conversations that are meaningful, that are noteworthy and should be addressed, as well as normal, chilled-out conversations that forms friendships. I just had it in mind the conclusion I wanted to add on into this, but it totally slipped my mind. Perhaps another time then when it comes back to memory.
Asides that personality, I suppose, yes, with the artistic side of me (even though it’s not at the level of the experts), a type of job that would suit me would be one that requires creativity, and drawing, or any kind of art making. Yet when I say this, I mean of a job that allows the creativity fuel to flow naturally. Too many times nowadays, creativity is forced because of deadlines that must be met. Sure, the company you work for would get what they want, you managed to meet the deadline, and profit rolls in, so on, so on. But then you’d lose yourself to the industry. Everything becomes industrialized. To me, creativity, especially for artists, is your style, a part of you. And many times because of the need to meet deadlines or satisfy the requirements/standards of their bosses, artist tend to compromise their style and make it something industrial-worthy. It feels, to me, like they’re cutting off the lower half of their arm, and replacing it with a robotically-manufactured one. And when asked whether they like it, they’re trained to answer you that they do to the point where they actually believe they do.
As a person who wants the hard-core realness, and can’t tolerate the faking of personality, and hating very much the very restriction of not letting you be yourself, the job that would suit my kind of personality would be a job that has no such restrictions, that would let you be free to be creative (preferably at your own timing, though it seems unrealistic), and to be yourself. Yes, we’re to be responsible of our own behaviour and actions. But I’m don’t want to be selling my soul for the sake of earning money. I will not prostitute my creativity for the lust of others who are looking to be satisfied. No. If you have something you want satisfied, and you know it’s unethical, get out of the room and think about what you’re wanting. I won’t even ask you to find another artist to do it for you, because no artist should be forced to produce something they do not want to produce. No artist, or any man, with whatever occupation they have, should be slaved to do something they don’t want to do for the sake of money.
Lastly, going back to my earlier paragraph, where I made a very judgemental statement on how cliché people would be, I think it’s more than safe to say that I am indeed a very judgemental person. No, I don’t like it, it’s nothing to be proud of, and yes I should care that I’m a judgemental person. It’s something I’m working on.
I asked once, a counsellor friend of mine, a very kind, sweet-hearted, quiet lady, why I was so judgemental of others. Her reply was, “The reason, why you’re so judgemental, is because you’re afraid of being judged. You’re judgemental because you expect others to reach a bar of standards that you yourself cannot reach.” And it was so true. A double-check if that was the truth that the insides of me could agree on, and the only conclusion that I came up with was that it was so and very true. I’m hard on others because I’m hard on myself.
With that, I would say that the type of job that would suit my personality, and the kind of job that I would love to have, would be a job that would humble my very being. Yeap. Sometimes, a good kick in the face does us more good than it does in harming us, it’s just whether we’re going to let our pride down. That would be a great job, one that teaches you humility, to rid of your arrogant pride, one that reminds you that humans aren’t perfect. C.S Lewis once wrote a passage concerning pride, that ‘Pride is the root of all evil’, and then shows how it everything led up to pride (you should go read it, I found it fantastically true).
But why be humble? Because, for me, in humility you can accept your mistakes, it lowers your walls, you judge less, and you are accepting of more things even if you can’t agree with them. It is the opposite of pride. In pride you cannot even accept the very mistakes you make; in humility you understand. In pride you are blinded by over-focusing the standards you’ve set for yourself; in humility you can see the stairway to it (even if it’s a very long one). In humility you would accept all bashings of life and have your face on the lowest of grounds for others to step on while they laugh at you, because you can forgive. Being humble, as the saying goes, is not about thinking less of yourself to the point where you think you’re the scumbag of the Earth. Nope. It means to think less about yourself, putting down your selfish desires, and letting others go or putting others first.
Therefore I would like a job that would kick my pride in the face, so that I will be able to serve others better. So that I can go down the lowest of the lowest levels and not complain about it, and do a work that is good there and that would benefit others. So that no pride will come in the way me and my colleagues to do a good job. So that even in the mud where pride will scream by the stains, humbleness will find the treasure underneath. The way I see it nowadays, pride can really be an awful thing. Although it can raise you up to your heavens, it can also send you crashing to the pits when you don’t meet your own standards. Ouch. (Where then would be forgiveness?)
There’s still a humongous list that I can write out to say what kind of job would fit my personality. But I think this would be enough for now. The road to self-discovery can’t be completed in one sitting, and so off to bed I shall go, wake up tomorrow and continue life as it is, but all the while through the moments think about where I am, the person I am, and where I want to go.
As much as the job I’ve more or less ‘described’ that would suit me best based on solely my personality sounds ridiculous, too good to be true, at least I got somewhere (Better than not knowing myself at all).
Perhaps totally off topic and irrelevant, I think this would make a good closing, seeing how that this question is obviously directed to those who are unemployed, namely students. I have an older brother who now works. It’s a quite a big change to see someone in the family other than your parents start a job, especially while you’re still studying. Everyone once in a while when we go out for lunch, most times on a breezy afternoon, in the same corner shop that sells Chicken Rice that we’ve been going to since we were in kindergarten, we’d talk about his working world, and we’d talk about mine despite the differences. When it comes to deciding what to do in the future, it always leads back to him saying this “Do what you love. Make the job something you love, or make what you love doing into your job,” As much as this saying has been seen over and over again on the internet as a motivational quote that has lost its juices because it’s been overly used, it does hold its meaning tight on. I can’t explain everything that he said to explain what he meant by it, but take the whole sentence literally.
Don’t worry too much about whether the job will fit your personality, be more concerned on whether your attitude can adapt to the job. And if your personality loves it, like how the sun loves kissing the ocean every morning and every evening, then you’re doing it right.