Love letter (Astarion x Tav)
Cws: mentions of sexual activity (negatively), self hatred, really really angsty (please let me know if there needs to be more trigger warnings <3)
Note: just been thinking a lot about Astarions lore and past, and wrote this last night at God knows what time. This is Astarions love letter to Tav
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I was surrounded by those who craved it, and yet i detested it the most
Every embrace felt like strangulation, every squeeze… like death
Because they weren’t genuine… they were lustful… they were dirty
Filth that would graze my skin sinfully… grotesque figures that I hardly remember…
What's the use in remembering?… death had already kissed their pitiful lips
Sometimes I question the God’s in utter outrage
How dare you send me them now! When I am broken and bitter!
What of my mortal life? How can i worship those who torture me
And amongst all the chaos and anger embedded into my mind
You who lights up my soul
You… who caresses the filth away
Your ethereal form is engraved into my mind.. My heart
Every scar, every mark… every crease and crevice…
You kissed the pain away, the suffering… the hurt
By the Gods you're so wonderful… so beautiful… so perfect
You taught me the meaning of touch
You taught me the meaning of love
Not just to love others, but to also love myself
My love… I am eternally grateful for you
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Authors note: sorry for the inactivity! Uni has been kicking my butt, and my part time job has been tiring. I know this isn't my usual content but I hope you enjoy!
