she asks the question, and she should not be surprised by the answer she gets from her husband. for MONTHS on end, they have been drifting apart: she has gone back to her work, and he has stayed at home with the children; yet she felt no support whatsoever on his part, or it felt FAKED whenever he would tell her how fine it was that she was back working and he wasn’t. It had started to feel like he resented her for his injury and his incapacity to resume his former position.
of course, they can do nothing else but FIGHT about it, because they both lack basic communication skills within their couple, and because they both see things as extreme. that very vision had pushed her to throw the word ‘divorce’ on the table more than once, had pushed her to ask for more and more proofs that there was still something worth saving, something worth FIGHTING for between them.
‵ you think it doesn’t matter ? i’m asking you if i wasted all those years by your side, wasted my time with a man who only PRETENDED, and you tell me it doesn’t matter ? ′
a divorce is the last thing she wants ; what she wants is for him to take her into his arms, tell her she’s been mistaken, that he loves her more than anything and that he will fight for her, fight for them. what she wants is the happy family they’ve always dreamed of, talked about, created TOGETHER.
‵ if you go out of this house, you won’t ever set foot here again ′ she speaks from behind the walls of her hands, because it makes it easier to say those fatal words. it’s easier if she doesn’t have to look at his face when she CONDEMNS him.